Ep 20 || Healing from Narc Abuse & Trusting Yourself Again

Ep 20 || Healing from Narc Abuse & Trusting Yourself Again

In this episode, we pick up where the trauma bonding series left off and answer the question listeners keep asking: how do you actually rebuild self-trust after narcissistic abuse? We talk about why the self-trust break happens first, how to reconnect with your body's "no" before the story catches up, and how to re-learn discernment with others without armoring up completely. This one's about coming back home to yourself — your preferences, your pleasure, your identity — and choosing safety as your new normal instead of adrenaline. Pour your tea. Let's get into it.

Ep 19 || The 7 Stages of Trauma Bonding / The Empath-Narcissist Dynamic

In this episode, we're naming what so many of us spent years trying to explain away. We walk through the 7 stages of trauma bonding and the 7 signs that what felt like love was actually control. If you've ever lost yourself in someone and called it love, this one is for you. Take care of yourself with this one, this is a safe space, and we'll always be here when you're ready. Join our neurodivergent academy: https://ancientsoulgardens.com/year-1-about/

Ep 18 || Are All Neurodivergents K*nky Gays?

We are not saying all autistic people are queer. We are not saying all neurodivergents are sexually explorative. We ARE saying the overlap is statistically suspicious and spiritually significant. Join our neurodivergent academy: https://ancientsoulgardens.com/year-1-about/ Citations: * Warrier et al. (2020) — Nature Communications. Large-scale study (n=641,860) on overlap between autistic traits and gender diversity. * Van der Miesen et al. (2018) — Elevated rates of autism in gender identity clinic patients, and vice versa. * George & Stokes (2018) — Archives of Sexual Behavior. Autistic adults significantly more likely to identify as non-heterosexual. * Barnett & Maticka-Tyndale (2015) — Qualitative research on autistic sexual identity and community belonging. * Cascalheira et al. (2021) — Psychological benefits of BDSM including stress reduction and altered states. * Connolly (2006) — Journal of Psychology & Human Sexuality. BDSM practitioners show lower psychological distress than general population. * Williams & Prior (2015) — Explicit negotiation and consent culture in BDSM communities. * Turner (2016) — Qualitative interviews describing kink as nervous system regulation and healing. * Mahler (2019) — Interoception research; internal body sense in autistic people. * Marco et al. (2011) — Sensory hyper- and hypo-reactivity in autism, including sensory seeking. * Green et al. (2019) — How sensory profiles shape sexual preferences in autistic adults. * Ducheny et al. (2018) — Found family structures in LGBTQ+ communities.

Ep 17 || The 7 Stages of Spiritual Awakening

Join our mystical & scientific academy for the intuitively gifted. Apply to National Intuitive Academy: https://ancientsoulgardens.com/academy-application/ In the beginning of spiritual awakening, you change how you dress, how you eat, how you speak, what words you use, what words you won’t use. You stop drinking, stop swearing, stop wearing black, start saying “aligned” every six minutes, and suddenly your entire personality is “I no longer resonate.” And then, years later, if the path is real, you end up in a kitchen at 7:14 a.m. with a coffee and some tobacco realizing this might be closer to God than half the "conscious community".

Ep 16 || Jesus Wasn’t White, and He’s Not Who You Were Told

Come learn the radical truth about Yeshua/Issa and how badly Churchianity got it wrong. In this episode we talk about Jesus's real words and teachings, who Mary Magdalene really was, and what Jesus would think about Christianity today. Join our Academy: https://ancientsoulgardens.com/year-1-about/