Life as a Web: Presence, Resonance, Rupture and Relationality with Katja Markelova

Good Girl. Regulated Girl. Same Cage - Why "Regulated" is Just Another Way to Make You Manageable.

This episode starts with real anger. My anger that I met when rockets were landing not far from where I was working. When I had to be evacuated again, when I had to leave colleagues behind because I have a passport and they don't, and then land back in a quiet Spanish village with nowhere to put any of it. I share how I navigated my healthy flight response (escape!), and what it took to finally meet my own emotional body after eight days of resistance, a pilgrimage through Greece, and a 22-day commitment to stop abandoning herself, even when everything inside of me wanted to go numb. And then I say the thing that nobody in the wellness space wants to say out loud: The regulation industry might be making you smaller. We went from "be a good girl" to "stay in your window of tolerance" and called it healing. But if you've traded performing niceness for performing calm, you haven't gotten free. You've just upgraded your cage. Inside this episode: 💣 The structural wound beneath people-pleasing: it's not that you give too much, it's that you were trained to scan the room before you scan yourself 💣 Why capitalism, the care sector, and patriarchy all love a regulated woman 💣 The difference between regulation and range — and why I want to blow the walls off the window entirely 💣 What emotions actually are: not chaos, not interruptions, not problems to manage, but instructions! 💣 The three things we do when we don't know how to be with emotion: explode, collapse, or leave ourselves 💣 Why you can't gratitude-journal your way to joy when the channel is clogged 💣 And the bridge that changes everything: the work isn't adding pleasure. It's removing what blocks it. This one is for you when you have gone through all the therapy the theory, and still feel like something is stuck: It probably is. And this episode is the beginning of moving it. Want to go deeper? Join Range. My four-week program for building a wide, resonant nervous system and emotional body. Live calls, Telegram audios, practices that land in the body. We start April 28th. 🔗 https://annelepelaars.systeme.io/range [https://annelepelaars.systeme.io/range] Follow Anne on Instagram: @thewidewomanWebsite: thewidewoman.com [https://thewidewoman.com/]

Wider in Conflict - The Activism of Staying Present

This episode looks like it’s about me in a conflict zone, but really it’s about the war we all carry under our own skin. It’s the tug of personal need against external demand, the moments where life shouts “run faster, do more” and you feel the old temptations to shrink, speed, perform, disappear. It’s the exact crossroads where your child parts reach for the steering wheel and you choose not to hand it over. Yes, I take you with me again into the Middle East, but only as a mirror, only as a loudspeaker for what is true everywhere: in this current society your nervous system will always drag you back into survival unless you consciously choose otherwise. And that choice isn’t glamorous. It’s raw, uncomfortable, intimate as hell. But it’s also where pleasure becomes medicine, where slowing down becomes the most grown up thing you can do, and where maturity stops being a concept and starts being a sensation in your body. Because Slow and Deep isn’t a vibe. It’s a refusal to abandon yourself when everything around you is built for Fast and Shallow. And that refusal is where life gets deliciously honest, pleasurable and mature.  Inside this episode we get into: 🦇The way my body spoke before I even unpacked: how allergies, PMS, gut tension, pelvic floor ache and a clenched jaw revealed my truth before my mind caught up 🦇 How staying inside my body became the quiet rebellion and how every practice turned into a prayer instead of a to-do-list-performance 🦇 How presence became activism, not the loud kind, but the kind that refuses to abandon itself 🦇 Why your nervous system copies the field you’re in and how to unhook yourself before you melt into this worlds’ chaos 🦇 The exact moment my child parts tried to take the wheel and how I chose the grown up seat, held myself through it and came back to real maturity 🦇 How I slowed myself when everything demanded speed, efficiency, saviorism and a shiny, functional version of me 🦇 How my pleasure practice kept my soul awake, my purpose warm, my medicine intact, even when the environment begged me to shrink, fawn, perform or numb 🦇 How slowing down and deep time with myself saved me, fed my aliveness, held my younger parts with love and kept me devoted enough to serve rooms full of people from my bones, not my adrenaline If you want to hear what Slow and Deep looks like in real life, where demands for support are infinite, this episode will crack something open for you. And if you are a humanitarian or aid-worker: this episode is dedicated to you. Receive, and know that you are not alone and I see you in all your hard work to bring goodness to those that need it the most. But please remember your own needs and prioritize your own health and wellbeing, to be able to continue your important work. Join Slow & Deep to step into practice yourself, and turn your December Chaos in a conflict free zone (we start Sunday Dec 7th): https://annelepelaars.systeme.io/slowanddeep/salespage [https://annelepelaars.systeme.io/slowanddeep/salespage]  Follow me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thewidewoman/ [https://www.instagram.com/thewidewoman/]  Sign up to my Love Letters to get free goodies and invitations:https://annelepelaars.systeme.io/loveletterssignup [https://annelepelaars.systeme.io/loveletterssignup]  Join for this Sundays’ (Dec 7th) Pelvic Pleasure workshop:  https://sara-steden-s-school.teachable.com/p/pelvic-pleasure-workshoppt2 [https://sara-steden-s-school.teachable.com/p/pelvic-pleasure-workshoppt2]  Get to know more of me on my website: https://thewidewoman.com/ [https://thewidewoman.com/]

The Forgotten Map Of Our Pelvis - Where Safety, Shame & Pleasure Meet

This episode goes straight to the root. Literally. Most women can speak about trauma and nervous system regulation, but freeze when asked to map their own pelvis. We were never taught that the body’s deepest aliveness lives in the places we’ve been taught to avoid: the pelvic bowl, the perineum, the cervix, the pelvic floor. The sacred gateway between safety and pleasure. In this juicy, unfiltered conversation, I sit down with Germany’s best kept secret, Sara Steden, a holistic practitioner and anatomy nerd who bridges the medical and the mystical. Together we map the landscapes most of us were never shown. We talk about numbness, shame, invasive genital procedures and the ways women disconnect from their deepest intelligence: and how we can come back, cell by cell, breath by breath, touch by touch. This episode is equal parts science, tenderness, and rebellion: a reminder that your body isn’t dirty, broken, or too much. It’s a masterpiece of nerve endings and aliveness, waiting for you to come home. If you’ve ever felt disconnected from your pleasure, had to deal with invasive genital procedures or are unsure how to feel your body again and expand your pleasure, this one is for you. It’s time to get intimate with your anatomy. Literally. Sign up for our Pelvic Pleasure Workshop on Sunday the 16th of November through our Instagram pages (@sara_steden and @thewidewoman). Learn more about Sara via her website www.sarasteden.de [http://www.sarasteden.de] and Anne via www.thewidewoman.com [http://www.thewidewoman.com].  #widewomanpodcast#pelvicbowl#pelvicpleasure#pelvicpower#pleasure#pleasureasmedicine#somatictherapy#somatic#somatics#fascia#podcastforwomen

Advanced Relationality: Beyond Cancel Culture into Mature Connection

Post-grad humaning: nuance, duality and real intimacy in a polarised world. We live in a world that cancels fast. Disagree with me and you’re out. Block. Unfollow. Goodbye nuance. Goodbye learning. Goodbye intimacy. In this episode I open up about what I call the “post-grad level of humaning”: advanced relationality. I share how my own path - from early Buddhist training to sitting with the Taliban and former ISIS members - forced me to hold duality where I most wanted to hate. It was my first taste of advanced relationality: staying present with dissonance, respecting someone’s humanity even when you despise their choices. Inside you’ll hear: 🚫 Why cancel culture feels safe but keeps us small, lonely and unchallenged 🚫 A story from my Buddhist teacher that cracked my rage open and showed me basic goodness in people I thought were only evil 🚫 How that teaching helped me sit across from Taliban and former ISIS members without losing myself 🚫 What “orienting” means when perspectives vary and how it can transform your relationships 🚫 Practical ways to tolerate rupture and disagreement without self-abandonment or bypassing 🚫 How to start practising advanced relationality with the people who trigger you most, including your partner This is for the women (and men!) who are beyond beginner work. The ones ready to get wider, hold more of life, and meet difference without collapse or control. If you’re ready to practise this with me, DM me on Instagram or join my new group program this fall. Let’s anchor this level of humaning together. Want more? ⚡ Get your free Wide Woman Workbook [https://annelepelaars.systeme.io/widewomanworkbookfree] ⚡ Dive into the Getting Wider Telegram Program [https://annelepelaars.systeme.io/gettingwider] ⚡ Sign up for my Wide Woman Love Letters [https://annelepelaars.systeme.io/loveletterssignup] And if this episode moved something in you: share it with a woman who is ready to get wider too. This is how we build the Wide Woman Collective. One body. One field. One remembering at a time.

Life as a Web: Presence, Resonance, Rupture and Relationality with Katja Markelova

What makes life bearable - even magical - when everything feels too much? You will receive the answer in this podcast, through all the ruptures we encountered 🐝 In this episode I sit with the extraordinary Katja Markelova, my mythical teacher (“similar to Joe Dispenza, but more fun!”) and a multidimensional being lives as a bridge between worlds. Katja’s field is one of resonance: being with her changes you. She embodies the paradox of grounded sorcery, where science, myth, and raw humanness meet. In this episode we explore how presence isn’t a performance of stillness but a tidal rhythm, how resonance can change an entire field without words, and how true relationality - with ourselves, with others, with life itself - is the foundation everything rests on.  And that rupture, even if highly uncomfortable, is a portal into deeper intimacy and relationality. Together we wander into: * 🕸️ Why “love and light only” is a betrayal of human nature 🕸️ The cost of being “safe” instead of alive in trauma-informed spaces 🕸️ Learning how to be with the most difficult difficulty (in yourself, with others, and the world) without effort 🕸️ Leaning in with presence as the golden thread through rupture, repair and daily life 🕸️ Resonance (and rupture!) as a portal into depth, intimacy and unseen realms 🕸️ Relationality as the heart of being human, messy and unpolished 🕸️ The imaginal body as threshold and bridge between matter and myth This conversation wasn’t neat. The recording itself ruptured, twice. A wasp visited. Headphones broke. Nothing went smoothly. And yet, the interruptions became the medicine: a reminder that life is layered, fractal, and relational, always asking us to widen rather than control. Listen if you’re ready to lean into all of life and remember that presence, resonance, and relationality are not lofty ideals but the very fabric of life.  Guest Links: Website: talesofbodyverse.com [http://talesofbodyverse.com] Instagram: @talesofbodyverse Free Telegram: https://t.me/+QtO2QK7U1AMwNGZk [https://t.me/+QtO2QK7U1AMwNGZk]  Host Links: Website: thewidewoman.com [http://thewidewoman.com] Instagram: @thewidewoman Join the "Getting Wider" program for more insights and practices inspired by Katja's work: https://annelepelaars.systeme.io/gettingwider [https://annelepelaars.systeme.io/gettingwider]  Follow, like and save the podcast, and join the conversation by sharing what resonated with you in the comments, because we want to do this again!  #podcast #joedispenza #quantumhealing #quantumfield #presence #resonance #relationality #somatichealing #traumahealing #healingjourney #consciousrelationships #energywork #embodiment #nervoussystem #rupture #alchemical