The Ho'omanawanui Podcast

Episode 2 - Life is a series of Constant Adjustments

A lot of people think the hardest part of losing something is the moment it happens. It’s not. It’s what comes after. In Episode 2, I open up about what it really means to lose a path you believed was part of your identity—and the reality of having to pivot when life forces you to. This episode goes beyond the surface of disappointment and gets into the raw, uncomfortable space that follows: confusion, grief, anger, and the process of trying to rebuild when the version of your life you were chasing no longer exists. This is a story about pushing forward when your body stops making sense, when people misunderstand your struggle, and when you’re left questioning everything you thought you knew about yourself. It’s about the weight of walking away from something that mattered—and the truth that even when you’re given answers, it doesn’t immediately bring peace. FYI I recorded this a little dehydrated you can hear it in my voice.

Episode 1- Intro (The Backlot)

Episode 1 introduces Ho‘omanawanui through the Backlot in Waimānalo, a place tied deeply to family, memory, and identity. It reflects on the space behind my childhood home along the Koʻolau mountains where gatherings happened, stories were shared, and connections to my grandparents and my roots were formed. Rather than beginning with loss itself, this episode begins with the foundation that makes endurance possible — the places and people that shape who we are before life changes us. It sets the tone for the podcast by exploring how memory, place, and family carry meaning long after moments pass, and how ho‘omanawanui begins with understanding where you come from.