Episode 3: They Had My Back

Episode 4: When the Noise Stops

Host Shayne, a father grieving the suicide of his son Josh, explores the hollow silence that follows the loss of a child and the dangerous isolation that can follow. He shares his struggle with loneliness, the choice to reach out, and the healing power of connection with a pivotal motorcycle ride that helped him feel alive again. This episode offers honest encouragement for grieving fathers: vulnerability is strength, small steps matter, and reaching out can save a life.

Episode 3: They Had My Back

After the loss of his son, Shayne shares the powerful story of how his brothers and sisters in the Combat Veterans Motorcycle Association carried him through the darkest days. From the weight of grief to the strength found in silent support, this episode explores the healing power of community, brotherhood, and showing up for one another. If you’re grieving, this message is for you: you don’t have to carry it alone.

Episode 2: The Days After: Learning to Breathe Again

In this episode of Dads Out of Darkness, Shayne shares what life looked like in the days after losing his son, Josh. He talks about the numbness, the anxiety, and the struggle to keep going for his daughter. Shayne also shares some practical ways that helped him begging to heal, talking openly, taking care of his body, building routine, connecting with other dads, giving himself grace, and finding purpose through pain. This episode continues in the journey to survive the unthinkable loss of a child. You are not alone.

Episode 1: When Fathers Grieve: Finding Strength After Suicide and Loss

In this first episode of Dads Out of Darkness: Light After Loss, host Shayne shares his personal journey after losing his 15-year-old son, Josh, to suicide. He opens up about the pain, the silence fathers are often expected to carry, and the struggle to navigate grief as both a dad and an Army veteran. Shayne also talks about becoming a Mental Health First Aid instructor and his mission to break the stigma around fathers speaking openly about loss, suicide, and mental health. This episode sets the stage for honest conversations, support, and connection for dads who are walking through the same darkness.