Reflection - Lunch Time with Demons

Reflection - Lunch Time with Demons

Season Two (Ep 24) This episode is mostly a solo reflection from Bella, with Ryan offering quiet support throughout. She opens up about a brutal week that brought several old wounds to the surface: perfectionism, fear of being "too strange," money/worth issues, and a deep ache around being "burned out" while feeling unappreciated. She shares a heartfelt fan message as a jumping-off point to talk about her sense of purpose (being a "mirror" who reflects people's potential back to them), then gets into the painful contrast between that purpose and 20 years of rejection in her creative work, especially her ergodic literature project NUMoS. A family conflict that spilled into a conversation with her young daughter adds another layer of rawness to the episode. The second half shifts toward how she's been processing all this through mind-body-spirit practice and small "divine" synchronicities crying in a sun shower, a gifted tarot deck and perfume from Ryan, and book covers messages that felt like signs from Lucifer, Leviathan, and Belial. She uses these to illustrate her "let them / underestimate me" mantra about not needing external validation, recommends a few poetry collections (by Megan Fernandez, Jesse K. Bear, Haley Lou Richardson, and R.H. Sinn) as resources for working through similar wounds, and closes with an emotional thank-you to listeners and Ryan for supporting the show and giving her space to be unapologetically herself. She previews next week's episode, which will focus on King Belial. Abella's Linktree [https://linktr.ee/AbellaCaress?utm_source=linktree_profile_share<sid=9960b43a-2457-4772-adc3-a9bf2228a040] Ryan's LinkTree [https://linktr.ee/Raven.S?utm_source=linktree_profile_share<sid=e8f18e8a-251b-40f2-9506-d6b4fc72b5cc]

Love and Light - Lunch Time with Demons

Season Two (Ep 23) The episode opens with casual small talk Bella describes her morning visiting "Lady Woodstock," a new goddess figure in Woodstock, NY, and documenting the experience for Patreon, before the two dive into their main topic: the concept of "love and light" in witchcraft and occult spirituality. They spend much of the conversation unpacking the negative connotations that phrase has accumulated and how it has become almost a punchline in the community, associated with spiritual bypassing, the suppression of difficult emotions, and a moralistic framing of darkness as something to be purged rather than integrated. Both hosts argue that this "love and light only" mindset ironically causes harm by casting judgment on others and discouraging people from sitting with pain, grief, or anger. The conversation pivots toward a more constructive take, with Bella and Ryan advocating for shadow work and emotional integration as a healthier alternative. They discuss how dark or stagnant energies aren't inherently evil but instead teachers and lessons that, when faced honestly, can lead to genuine self-love and growth. Bella wraps up with a personal example about preparing to see an ex and choosing to process her pettiness internally, not for his sake but for her own peace. The core message is that authentic spiritual practice means making room for the full spectrum of human emotion rather than suppressing the difficult parts under a veneer of positivity. Bella Link Tree [https://linktr.ee/AbellaCaress?utm_source=linktree_profile_share<sid=38f3adf9-be32-40cd-b6fe-b72e618e52b7] Ryan Link Tree [https://linktr.ee/Raven.S?utm_source=linktree_profile_share<sid=2f7ccaee-501c-4aba-9a62-94f66a03488b]

Inner Child Work With Lucifer - Morbid Monday

The episode of Morbid Monday invites listeners to let their inner child "step forward," acknowledging how vulnerable and scary that can feel. Bella speaks to the wounds many carry feeling small, dismissed, or unimportant while affirming that the listener is resilient, worthy of gentleness, and always has been. The tone shifts into a visioning exercise: imagining a life where money flows without burnout, where you speak at your own pace without fear, where joy and play are prioritized over productivity-as-identity. Bella encourages listeners to release comparison and envy, reframing others' success as proof of what's also possible for you. The episode closes with an affirmation that the programming keeping you "small" no longer has to apply and that reconnecting with your inner child is the path back to that freedom. Abella's Link Tree [https://linktr.ee/AbellaCaress?utm_source=linktree_profile_share<sid=ddd5c102-df06-41a4-b4cc-547a75dc8b17]

Working with Lucifer part Three - Lunch Time with Demons

Season Two (Ep 22) The episode opens with a casual, candid check-in Bella reflects on feeling caught in a liminal space between life chapters, musing on her time living in Los Angeles and her sense that she may eventually return there with a new perspective and greater comfort in herself. Overall the episode is the third installment in an ongoing series about how to work with Lucifer as a deity. Bella and Ryan explore clair abilities and psychic communication, with Bella arguing that these aren't rare gifts but natural aspects of human consciousness rooted in neurology and shaped by each person's individual background, trauma, and mental makeup. She draws on her experience teaching students to emphasize how deeply personal and fluid this work is, touching on how to identify and work past the "filters" (personal biases, beliefs, upbringing) that can distort spiritual communication. The episode closes with the hosts teasing a planned Part 4 covering more advanced topics like covenants, bindings, and priesthood, and Bella reflecting on the beauty of a living, evolving spiritual practice that resists rigid doctrine. Cover art created by Casey at BellTarot.com Abella's Link Tree [https://linktr.ee/AbellaCaress?utm_source=linktree_profile_share<sid=0354ccb4-ec54-4d7b-8dea-19b27d72a985] Ryan's Link Tree [https://linktr.ee/Raven.S?utm_source=linktree_profile_share<sid=283f6c9a-1943-4acd-8856-83d20a249500]

Working With Lucifer part Two - Lunch Time with Demons

Season Two (Ep 21) Part 2 of a series called "How to Work with Lucifer," Building on the first episode's foundation of staying present, observant, and curious, this episode digs deeper into "Phase 2" self-awareness. Bella encourages listeners to honestly examine their own psychological needs before deepening their practice: Do they struggle with perfectionism or control? Do they need physical, tangible things (like an altar) to anchor a spiritual routine? She emphasizes that the divine doesn't demand perfection and that practitioners shouldn't project the harsh standards of human relationships onto entities like Lucifer. A key theme is authenticity showing up "as you are, broken and scared," rather than performing a polished version of yourself. The second half of the episode gets into practical elements of building a practice, particularly around altars and offerings. Bella central argument is that the altar is ultimately the practitioner themselves their time, energy, and attention and that elaborate or expensive setups are beside the point. What matters is sincerity, not obligation. She also clarifies her non-transactional approach to working with Lucifer (focused on mutual growth rather than exchanges of favors), while acknowledging that asking for help occasionally is perfectly compatible with a deeper, ongoing relationship. The episode closes with a preview of Episode 3, which will cover developing psychic abilities (the "Clairs") and mediumship essentially, how to communicate with entities once a foundation is in place Cover art created by Casey at BellTarot.com Abella's LinkTree [https://linktr.ee/AbellaCaress?utm_source=linktree_profile_share<sid=90d36822-03e0-4c7a-a070-1e8bbcc7838e] Ryan's LinkTree [https://linktr.ee/Raven.S?utm_source=linktree_profile_share<sid=cb41a5cd-4557-428a-a2cb-b6f92daf2985]