When God Feels Hidden

When God Feels Hidden

What do you do when you know God has called you, but you can’t quite feel Him? In this episode, Dhati and Missie sit down with Dhati’s brother, Reggie Lewis, for a deeply personal conversation about faith, calling, suffering, and the providence of God. Through Reggie’s story, we’re reminded that God is often working most powerfully in the places that feel ordinary, delayed, unseen, or even silent. The book of Esther never mentions God by name, yet His fingerprints are everywhere. In the same way, our lives may go through seasons where God feels hidden—but His hand is not absent. This conversation is for the tired missionary, the unseen leader, the faithful parent, the discouraged believer, and anyone trying to keep showing up when the outcome is unclear. God is still alive. God is still active. God is still moving.

Following Jesus in Flawed Systems | Erica Ngwolo

What does it look like to follow Jesus in places that feel complicated, compromised, or even broken? In this episode, Dhati and Missie sit down with Erica Ngwolo for a rich conversation on faithfulness, calling, discernment, and courageous presence in flawed systems. Through the lens of Esther’s story, they explore what it means to lead with honor in spaces that do not always value honor, and how believers can remain present without becoming compromised. Erica brings wisdom from her own work and calling, especially in spaces where systems, leadership, and justice intersect. Together, the conversation wrestles with the tension of proximity to power, the difference between honoring people and endorsing everything they represent, and the importance of discerning what God has actually called you to carry. This episode is for anyone trying to live faithfully in the workplace, in ministry, in institutions, or in environments where conviction and complexity sit side by side. Sometimes faithfulness does not look like escape. Sometimes it looks like staying present with wisdom, courage, restraint, and joy. Like, subscribe, and leave a review to help us reach more missionaries and disciple makers.

How to Navigate Conflict Without Losing Your Witness

Some people think courage means saying the hard thing as soon as they feel it. Others mistake wisdom for staying silent. But Esther gives us a different picture. In this episode, Dhati and Missie sit down with Traci Byrd to talk about conflict, courage, discernment, and what it means to confront hard things without becoming reactive. Together, they look at Esther’s example of boldness with timing, conviction with humility, and leadership that is anchored before it speaks. For urban missionaries, pastors, practitioners, and disciple-makers, conflict is unavoidable. It shows up in teams, churches, neighborhoods, institutions, and relationships. The question is not whether conflict will come. The question is whether we can walk through it in a way that still reflects Jesus. This conversation explores the difference between peacemaking and peacekeeping, the temptation to react quickly, the cost of damaged trust, and the possibility of restoration when things have gone wrong. If you are navigating tension, leading through disagreement, or trying to stay faithful in a difficult conversation, this episode is for you. Subscribe for more conversations that equip missionaries and disciple-makers for faithful ministry in the city. #MyBLVD #UrbanMission #ChristianLeadership

Did I hear God WRONG?

What does Esther teach us about timing, courage, and hard conversations? In this episode of the MyBLVD Podcast, Dhati and Missie continue through the story of Esther, looking at the wisdom of the banquet scene—not as avoidance, but as Spirit-led discernment. Sometimes faithfulness means speaking quickly. Sometimes it means preparing the table first. Together, they talk about prophetic witness, relational trust, confrontation, reconciliation, and what it means to follow God when the outcome is still uncertain. Because difficulty does not always mean you missed God. Sometimes the Lord is producing something in the middle of what you would have never chosen. Watch the full conversation and join us as we continue asking what it means to live faithfully “for such a time as this.” Like, subscribe, and share this episode with someone learning to lead with courage, wisdom, and presence. #MyBLVD #ForSuchATimeAsThis #BookOfEsther #UrbanMission #ChristianLeadership #Discipleship #FaithAndCourage #MyBLVDPodcast

Advocacy Without the Noise

In this episode of the MyBLVD Podcast, Dhati and Missie continue the Esther conversation by exploring what it means to advocate with wisdom, courage, and Spirit-led discernment. Esther didn’t rush into the room simply because the moment was urgent. She paused. She fasted. She called others to pray. She moved with courage, but also with timing, strategy, and dependence on God. In a culture that rewards quick reactions, public outrage, and constant noise, this conversation invites leaders to consider a different way: one marked by prayer, truth, wisdom, grace, and a faithful gospel witness. Dhati and Missie talk about the difference between reacting and responding, the danger of advocacy becoming tribal noise, and why leaders must go to God privately before they speak publicly. This episode is for urban missionaries, pastors, leaders, and disciple-makers learning to speak into real tensions without being shaped by the spirit of the age.