Can Psychedelics Heal Suicide Grief? Man "Visits" His Late Brother on MDMA

Can Psychedelics Heal Suicide Grief? Man "Visits" His Late Brother on MDMA

Tony couldn’t function after his brother’s suicide. Growing up, they did everything together. They were best friends. After spinning out for months, Tony stumbles onto psychedelics. Desperate for relief, he takes the leap. This is part 1 of the story of what he found. Chapters (00:00) Intro. (03:53) Losing a brother. (07:17) MDMA trip 1 (16:13) MDMA trip 2 (22:11) Then it hit me… Notes Edits: To focus this episode’s themes and narrative, we cut down Tony’s analysis, observations, narrativizations, & story. We also cut all of Alex’s questions & comments. Other edits are limited to dead space, audio blemishes, unnecessary words, & unessential content. We consulted with Tony, & he approved this flow. Theme song: Secret Wilderness’ theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field. Other music: We used the tracks “Stalker Heart of Chornobyl Atmosphere 7,” “7. Pastoral (Vast Peace) [Cinematic Underscore Loops - The Core Collection], “Sounds Of The Sea 4” “Beauty Of The Earth 1 - Sunrise” & “Sounds Of The Sea 6” by Sascha Ende [https://ende.app/en]. This music is free for commercial use under the CC BY 4.0 license [https://ende.app/en/standard-license]. Other sounds: We used the tracks: “ForestDay_BW.66.wav” by sonidosreales245 -- https://freesound.org/s/517042/ -- License: Creative Commons 0 & “Lightswitch being turned on/off from various distances” by a3poify -- https://freesound.org/s/372003/ -- License: Creative Commons 0

The Future of Secret Wilderness

Today we’re taking a break from our regularly scheduled programming.  We won’t be exploring someone’s psychedelic therapy story, but we will be exploring something else:  The future of this show. https://www.youtube.com/@spiritual_brother

Can I Trust Psychedelics?

In our first story, Jane has a terrifying trip the day after she had a [quote] “healing” moment on mushrooms. In our second, Lana faces her fear of psychedelics years after she thought LSD [quote] “broke” her brain.  Can we trust psychedelics despite their risks?  These stories explore that question.  Chapters (00:00) Intro.  (02:49) Jane’s terrifying trip.  (20:41) Lana faces her fear.   Notes Jane’s episode: ⁠Can Psychedelics Heal the Mother Wound? Part 2 [https://open.spotify.com/episode/2wDnadYtTQONA45hYm4jH7?si=VelHsFL6SdOhaFNo69aKaA]⁠ Lana’s episode: ⁠Why Did I Have a Bad Trip? ⁠ [https://open.spotify.com/episode/6twWktm92T2Kgt6gp4rs4T?si=ZYr9V2jpRwi1EmZi4CCqBQ] Edits: This episode is created using edited clips from original episodes. We’ve added music to the clips and made a few minor cuts. Theme song: Secret Wilderness’ theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field. Other music: We used the tracks “Loop Paket 0008,” “The Backrooms Music Vol. 23,” “Cinema Blockbuster Trailer 11,” “Halloween 2025 Vol. 8,” “Binaural Sleep Vol. 2,” “Cinematic Desert 2,”  &  “Podcast Music Vol. 25 [Evening Calm]” by ⁠Sascha Ende⁠ [https://ende.app/en]. This music is free for commercial use under the ⁠CC BY 4.0 license⁠ [https://ende.app/en/standard-license].

Can Psychedelics Heal Generational Trauma? Part 2: The Mother Wound & the Father Wound

We re-enter Vaughn’s story as the course of his psychedelic therapy takes a turn. For years, Vaughn’s experiences had taken him, he believes, into his family’s traumatic history. He met its villians & victims — many were both — & discovered he could free himself from their burdens by experiencing their experience. This adventure, chronicled in part 1, went on for years. But then things changed. Psychedelics stopped taking him to his ancestors & started showing something else. His childhood. Chapters (00:00) Intro. (02:55) Alone in the crib. (07:41) Starting smoking at 50. (10:50) Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde. (14:07) Forgiving dad. (19:13) Inside the house. (23:34) Why people choose to live. Notes Edits: To focus this episode’s themes and narrative, we cut down Vaugn’s analysis, observations, narrativizations, & story. We also cut all of Alex’s questions & comments. Other edits are limited to dead space, audio blemishes, unnecessary words, & unessential content. We consulted with Vaughn, & he approved this flow. Theme song: Secret Wilderness’ theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field. Other music: We used the tracks “The Backrooms Music Vol. 20,” “Bar Performance 10: Solo Cello & Piano,” “Lost Place Atmospheres Vol. 2,” “Podcast Music Vol. 4 [Mystery Ambience],” “Dream Of A Dream 2,” “The Backrooms Music Vol. 6,” “Disturbing Sounds 2 [for your neighbors],” & “Halo Stream Music Vol. 10,” by Sascha Ende [https://ende.app/en]. This music is free for commercial use under the CC BY 4.0 license [https://ende.app/en/standard-license].

Do Psychedelics Hurt or Heal? 3 Anonymous Psychedelic Campfire Stories

Today, we explore the complex power of psychedelics through 3 different stories. In our first story, Jane [quote] “telepathically” communicates with her abusive mother on psilocybin. In the second, Lev tries to address relationship issues with ayahuasca. In the last, Trip takes MDMA as a last-ditch effort to prevent his own suicide. Chapters (00:00) Intro. (03:36) Jane’s psychedelic conversation. (15:41) Lev hits eject on ayahuasca. (26:08) Trip’s MDMA trip. Notes Jane’s episode: Can Psychedelics Heal the Mother Wound? Part 2 [https://open.spotify.com/episode/2wDnadYtTQONA45hYm4jH7?si=utkPwh-yRF-o0ClysVxtDQ] Lev’s episode: Who Says Ego Death Is Good for Me? [https://open.spotify.com/episode/3l4SRS6667Tmm6hzfmOjKR?si=smFh0pvXQiKV6CRlgbQptQ] Trip’s episode: Can Psychedelics Help Me Love Myself? [https://open.spotify.com/episode/1B0lGyQoTaeLEdzjxbejCv?si=Tg21mrMMRGacsvTY5zXnMw] Edits: To focus this episode’s themes and narrative, we cut down our guests’ analysis, observations, narrativizations, & story. We also cut all of Alex’s questions & comments. Other edits are limited to dead space, audio blemishes, unnecessary words, & unessential content. We consulted with our guests during the original production of these edits, & they approved of the flow. Theme song: Secret Wilderness’ theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field. Other music: We used the tracks “Drones over New Jersey,” “7. Pastoral (Vast Peace) [Cinematic Underscore Loops - The Core Collection],” “African Desert,” “The Most Shocking Halloween Trailer 3,” & “Binaural Sleep Vol. 4,” by Sascha Ende. [https://ende.app/en] This music is free for commercial use under the CC BY 4.0 license [https://ende.app/en/standard-license].