The Spotlight Effect

Nice Knowing You

This is it: the final chapter of Season 1. Nice Knowing You isn’t a goodbye; it’s a pause to breathe and to look back at the words we’ve spoken, and the silences we’ve shared. In this episode, I unpack what it has meant to hold these conversations with myself, and with you, week after week. It’s a reflection on self-discovery. Thank you for listening, for showing up, for hearing the things I never said. This isn’t the end, just the end of a beginning.

Worth is a Boundary

In this episode of Things I Never Said to Myself, I talk about a difficult feeling that has taken me on a rollercoaster journey: rejection. From missing out on a sports award after leading my football team for a year to navigating unequal expectations in relationships, I share how these moments shaped my understanding of worth. Over time, I’ve come to see worth as a boundary, one I now fiercely protect. I decide the rules. I decide the value. Because no one should ever have the power to change how much I mean to myself. I hope this helps you heal. Music Credits: * Let Her Go – Passenger * An ending - Brian Eno * Find it– DYVN

The Spotlight Effect

In this episode, I talk about the human tendency to focus on ourselves and believe that everyone else is doing the same. I discuss how we live in our own heads and let our insecurities stop us from trying new things, out of fear that other people are just as aware of our flaws as we are. I share my experience at my previous high school and open up about two toxic traits I developed from being in an environment that punished any attempt to try something new. I hope this episode helps you feel freer to be yourself.

Imposter Syndrome

In this episode, I talk about the fear of not being enough. The fear that everyone will find out you’re a fraud: not smart enough, not attractive enough, not wealthy enough. I sit with the tension of experiencing imposter syndrome as a scholarship student and explore the trap of constantly comparing myself to others. I also share a deep analogy my Chemistry teacher once told me about life that has stayed with me. I hope this helps you love yourself a little better 💛 This episode was inspired by Marianne Williamson’s poem Our Deepest Fear. Music credits: Intro 🎵 Only by RY X Mid ambience – An Ending (Ascent) by Brian Eno Outro – Love Like This by RY X

If I had a time machine

I hope this helps you, not to let go of your past, but to shake hands with it and move on as a better person 🌱. In this long-overdue episode, I take a trip to the past. As a student at St. Ignatius in 2023, I revisit the memories, experiences, and lessons I acquired during my time there, and express my struggle to accept the fact that, at times, nostalgia has forced me to wish I were still there 🏫. I reflect on what I would do if I had a time machine ⏳ and sit with the acceptance of the mistakes and sacrifices I’ve made in the past to be the person I am today. Song credits: Love Like This – RY X, (outro) Berlin – RY X, (intro) Briano – Ano, An Ending (Ascent) (middle bit)