Falling forward in my 40s - Love, life and the lot

🎙️ Episode 8 - All Or Nothing

You know the Notion board or spreadsheet. The beautiful, colour-coded, seventeen-column one that took you an entire afternoon to build and that you have opened exactly once since. Yeah. Me too. In this episode I'm talking about being all or nothing and what happens when you finally stop fighting it and start designing around it instead. My PT said something to me today that I've technically known for years. And somehow, this time, it landed. If you've ever planned a triathlon you were never going to do, this one's for you.

🎙️ Episode 7: One Question

It was supposed to be a normal Easter holiday week. Wreaths on the graves, a trip to the zoo, painting the windows. The kind of week that just happens. And then Alfie asked one question. And everything that followed: a phone call, an Ancestry account, a rabbit hole I'm still in two weeks later and none of it was planned. This episode is about family. The traditions you just do without questioning. The people who came before us and the lives we never thought to ask about. And what happens when a small person asks the question you didn't know you needed to answer.

🎙️ Episode 6: I'm 100% Entitled to This Holiday (But...)

It's the day before I go on holiday. I'm already shattered. And I've got something to say about guilt. Not the big obvious kind. The kind that sits next to you on the drive. The kind that follows you in your wellies. This one's for anyone who's ever said "I've absolutely earned this" and then added a but.

🎙️ Episode 5: This Is the Kind of Connection That Actually Matters

Last week I talked about how hard it is to see friends in your forties. But when we do get together? It's incredible. In this episode, I talk about the difference between surface-level friendships in your twenties and the deep, real connections you make now. My sole aim in my twenties was recreating Coyote Ugly and coming home with cheesy chips. Now? The belly laughs hit different. The tears are okay. Your circle gets smaller — but it gets so much deeper. If you've been wondering why your friendships feel different now, this one's for you.

🎙 Episode 4 : I Wouldn't Trade It (Even When It Needs a Spreadsheet)

I tried to organise something with my friends over Easter. Just the three of us and the kids. And I genuinely can't remember the last time we were all in the same room. Now it takes a bloody Google Calendar just to get us together. In this episode, I talk about the death of spontaneity, why everything needs a plan now, and how we're all trying to fit connection into the gaps. If you miss just popping out, then this one's for you.