3. Feeling Called to Jesus but Resisting Him? This Is For You.
What does it mean when I feel drawn to Jesus—but something in me resists fully saying yes?
In this episode of Embers of Grace, I’m speaking directly to the person who feels the call of Christ but also carries confusion, hesitation, or resistance—often rooted in church hurt, religious performance, or past spiritual experiences. I share parts of my own story and what I keep hearing in conversations lately: “I feel called to Jesus, but I don’t understand it—and I have resistance. What do I do?”
I open up about my background with Catholicism (and the “performance” feeling I carried), and I speak specifically to the person who didn’t experience intimacy with Jesus through religion—only pressure, shame, or confusion. I also share how, in my own journey, I didn’t understand at first that “God” in New Age spirituality and the one true God of the Bible are not the same.
This episode is for you if:
* You feel spiritually exhausted by self-help or New Age practices
* You’ve experienced church hurt and don’t want religion—but you do want God
* You’re afraid of surrender because control has felt like safety
* You feel Jesus tugging at your heart, but you don’t know where to begin
I talk about how Jesus doesn’t ask me to clean myself up first. He invites me to come as I am—without condemnation—and then He transforms me over time. I also explain why grace produces repentance (not the other way around), and how God often leads us gently, step by step, into freedom.
KEY TOPICS COVERED
* Why resistance often shows up when I’m being called closer to Jesus
* Religion vs. relationship: what intimacy with Christ actually looks like
* Why I couldn’t follow both New Age spirituality and Jesus
* How conviction and transformation can happen gradually
* Why I don’t have to “fix myself” before I come to Jesus
* Grace produces repentance: what repentance really means
* Submission as relief (not loss) when I’m tired of carrying my life alone
* How God changes desires, appetites, and attachments over time
* Why peace and order are signs of alignment with the God of the Bible
SCRIPTURE REFERENCED
* John 8:11 – “Neither do I condemn you… go and sin no more.”
* Matthew 11:28 – “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”
* Romans 2:4 – “God’s kindness is meant to lead you to repentance.”
REFLECTION QUESTIONS
* Where do I feel drawn to Jesus—but still resistant?
* What am I afraid will happen if I fully surrender control?
* Are there practices, beliefs, or identities I’m holding onto that compete with Christ?
* What would it look like to simply come to Jesus honestly—without pretending I’m fine?
PRAYER (FROM THE EPISODE)
“Lord, I surrender. Reveal Yourself to me.
I don’t know what this looks like, but I know I want You in my life.
Help me trust You. Help me with my unbelief.
Help me with my resistance. Show me Your truth.
In Jesus’ name, amen.”
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