Pretty and Painful

Episode 28: Still Pouring the Coffee

Some days grief looks loud. Some days it just looks tired. In Episode 28 of Pretty & Painful, Bailey talks about masking, survival mode, self care, faith, flashback nights, sweet tea coping mechanisms, and learning how to carry grief without letting it harden you completely. This episode is for the people who still show up with heavy hearts. The ones forcing themselves to drink water, answer texts, pour the coffee, and keep moving even when their soul feels exhausted. From sunshine & hurricanes… to sweet tea & survival… to realizing God still meets us in the mess before the healing ever fully arrives — this one is soft, honest, Southern, and deeply human. Because grief is a lot like coffee. Sometimes bitter. Sometimes sweet. Sometimes watered down. Sometimes strong enough to wake you up all over again. And somehow… we still keep pouring another cup. ☕🩷 Pretty & Painful Podcast “Still Pouring the Coffee” Episode 28

Episode 27: I Saw you today

Episode 27 — “i saw you today” Sometimes grief doesn’t crash through the front door. Sometimes it pulls up beside you at a gas pump under a red sunset sky and steals the air right out of your lungs. Today I saw a stranger… but for a second, my heart swore it was you. This episode is about the weirdness of grief — the double takes, the familiar faces, the moments that feel like warm hugs and heartbreak all at once. The kind of grief that sneaks up on you when you thought you were finally okay. We’re talking about longing, memories, signs, God’s timing, and learning how to carry love for people who are no longer standing beside us physically… but somehow still show up everywhere. Because sometimes healing looks like laughing one day… and crying at strangers the next. Pretty & Painful Podcast — where grief and joy still sit at the same table. 🩷

Episode 26: Why are they so nice?

I found myself asking a question lately that honestly felt a little embarrassing to say out loud: “Why are they so nice to me?” Not fake nice. Not performative nice. Not nice with hidden intentions attached to it. I mean genuine kindness. Patience. Gentleness. The kind of love that doesn’t keep score. And maybe that question says more about what I’ve survived than anything else. In Episode 26 of Pretty & Painful, we’re talking about what happens when you’ve spent so long living around criticism, tension, conditional love, and survival mode… that healthy love almost feels uncomfortable. Because when you’re used to walking on eggshells, kindness can feel confusing. This episode is about healing through people who love differently. People who choose softness. People who reflect God without needing a stage to do it. Maybe real faith looks less like perfection and more like how we treat hurting people. And maybe for the first time in a long time… I’m learning that love was never supposed to hurt this much to be real. Episode 26 — Why Are They So Nice? 💗

Episode 25 : Grace for the girl i used to be

Episode 25 of Pretty & Painful is for the girl who still cringes at old Facebook memories, old choices, old relationships, old coping mechanisms… and forgets she was surviving the best way she knew how. This episode is about grace. Not just the kind God gives us — but the kind we struggle to give ourselves. Bailey opens up about grieving old versions of herself, carrying shame for seasons she barely survived, battling grief, depression, pain, and feeling far from God… while learning that healing doesn’t mean pretending the past never happened. It means realizing the girl you used to be still deserves compassion too. Because maybe she wasn’t weak. Maybe she was exhausted. Maybe she was drowning. Maybe she was doing everything she could just to stay alive. This episode is raw, reflective, faith-filled, and honest — for anyone trying to stop hating who they had to become in order to survive. “God makes all things new… and that includes me.” Pretty & Painful Podcast Where grief and joy sit at the same table.

Episode 24: Blurred Vision, Clear Grace

Hindsight is 20/20… but sometimes our vision isn’t. In Episode 24 of Pretty & Painful, Bailey dives into blurry seasons — the moments we ignored red flags, drifted from ourselves, questioned God’s timing, or got so lost in survival mode that we stopped seeing clearly. This episode is about slow blooming, spiritual burnout, hindsight, grace, and learning that healing doesn’t always happen all at once. Sometimes God meets us quietly… in the stillness, in the flowers blooming slowly, and in the moments we finally stop running long enough to listen. If you’ve ever felt spiritually squinty, emotionally exhausted, or stuck between grief and growth — pull up a chair. Because even with blurry vision… grace still sees us clearly. 🌸 Faith. Healing. Hindsight. Grace