My Body New Before I Did
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There’s a kind of knowing that doesn’t speak in words. It comes as fatigue that sleep doesn’t fix. As tension in your jaw. A burning in your belly. A sigh you didn’t realize you were holding. My body had been whispering to me for years. And I—nurse, healer, high-functioning perfectionist—had learned to override it. Until I couldn’t anymore. The day it all cracked open was unremarkable on the surface. A Tuesday, maybe. I had charting overdue, patients waiting, an inbox full of tasks. But that morning, I sat in my car in the parking garage—unable to move. Frozen. My heart raced. My mouth was dry. I felt sick. Not like a virus. More like my soul was rejecting my own life. That moment, something ancient in me stirred. Not in my mind, but in my gut. And I heard the clearest truth I’d ever known: You can’t keep going like this. You’re abandoning yourself. I had spent years tending to others while neglecting the deepest wounds in me. I thought if I just worked harder, achieved more, kept showing up, it would eventually feel right. But healing—real healing—doesn’t come through achievement. It begins with listening. With choosing yourself. With reclaiming your own body, breath, and soul. That was the moment I began to learn what it truly meant to be a healer. Not someone who fixes others, but someone who remembers their own wholeness—and walks others home to theirs. Since then, my healing journey has looked nothing like I expected. It’s been messy, nonlinear, and often lonely. But it began with that one moment. That one truth: My body knew before I did. And when I finally listened, everything began to transform. [Pause… soft exhale] Thank you for listening. If this story resonated with you, I’d love to hear yours. You can share your story of transformation at [insert email/link], and we may feature it in a future episode. Until next time, may you honor the wisdom in your body—and the healer within.
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