Middle of Chaos

Episode 15: Looking for Love in the Wrong Places

In this episode, I continue talking about how my childhood trauma affected my relationships as a young adult and into adulthood. I share the story of my first engagement, some of the warning signs I ignored, and how badly I wanted to be loved, chosen, and accepted; even when deep down something didn’t feel right. I also talk about how much I let other people influence my decisions back then, including relationships, church, and even major life choices I still think about today. And apparently Alfred the traveling lizard makes another appearance too. 🦎

Episode 14: Life Keeps Happening

Sometimes life does not slow down long enough for us to catch our breath. This week brought grief, unexpected travel, studying abroad, moving preparations, technical difficulties, and more twists and turns than I could have planned for. I originally intended to release a very different Episode 14 than this one, however life had other plans once again. So instead, this episode became something more real and unfiltered. In this conversation, I talk about grief, healing, chaos, resilience, and what it means to keep moving forward even when life keeps throwing curveballs our way. I also share a little about where I am currently in the world, why episodes may look a little different over the next few weeks, and why I still wanted to show up and talk to you anyway. And truly… thank you. I recently passed 100 listeners, and I cannot fully express how much that means to me! Thank you for being here with me through all of it. ~ Wilma Dunn

Episode 13: What I Thought Love Was… Back Then

In this episode, I talk about my teenage years and early relationships, and what I thought love was at the time. I share personal experiences where I allowed things I didn’t truly want because I was afraid of being rejected or not liked. I also talk about an on-and-off relationship that lasted for years, and friendships that hurt me more than once. Looking back now, I can see how what I went through as a child shaped the way I handled relationships, boundaries, and my own self-worth. This is part of understanding those patterns and learning how to change them. I’ll continue this in the next episode. Listener note: This episode includes sensitive and personal topics.

Episode 12: Quick Update — How What I Went Through Shaped My Understanding of Love

Hello Friends, This episode is a little different, but still really important. I did record a full Episode 12, but I’ve been having trouble opening the original file. I’ve been working on it all week and I’m still trying to recover it. If I can, I will absolutely upload it. If not, I promise I will still share that full story with you. But I didn’t want to leave you with nothing. If you listened to Episode 11, this is where that story continues. So this episode is a continuation of Episode 11 — and a reflection on how what I experienced growing up shaped the way I viewed love in my teenage years, early adulthood, and even in my marriage. I talk honestly about what it looked like to say “no” in my head, but still go along with things out of fear of rejection… and how being treated a certain way made me believe that was what love was. But I’m learning… that’s not love. Love isn’t something we earn by what we do. It’s something we deserve for who we are. And part of that journey is learning to love and forgive ourselves too. I’m still learning — and maybe you are too. Thank you for being here with me. — Wilma Dunn

Episode 11: Learning to Use My Voice When I Never Did.

In this episode, I share more about my childhood and go deeper into parts of my story I first touched on earlier in the podcast. There were things I didn’t fully understand at the time — moments that left me feeling confused, embarrassed, and unsure of how to speak up or make it stop. I talk about what that looked like for me, how I responded, and how those experiences followed me into later years. This is also part of my journey in finding my voice — something I didn’t have back then, but am learning to use now. If any part of this resonates with you, please know you’re not alone. If you or someone you know is struggling, you can call or text 988 for support.Listener note: This episode includes sensitive and personal topics that may be difficult for some listeners.