Lowkey Chaotic

Why Do We Want Validation From People Who Don't Care?

I met someone in LA and immediately found myself doing what so many of us do: trying to prove I was worth getting to know. In this episode, we're talking about validation, attention, self-worth, and why one person's indifference can sometimes outweigh the appreciation of hundreds of others. Because the question isn't why they didn't see us. The question is why we keep letting strangers decide whether we're worth seeing.

I Think I've Been Wrong About a Few Things

a little life update from california. in this episode, i share a realization i've been having about how my first relationship - and the abuse that existed within it - may have shaped my relationship to intimacy in ways i didn't fully understand until now. we also talk about procrastination, routine, perspective shifts, and a few things that have been making more sense lately.

I Want To Feel Seen

This episode starts with me attending a physiognomy class and somehow ends with me unpacking wanting to feel understood. We talk about the loneliness of being hyper-observant, the difference between attention and recognition, and why so many women feel deeply unseen despite constantly being looked at.

She Still Lives In Me

The girl that used to willingly make very self-destructive choices still lives in me. Nowadays the craziest things I do are nothing compared to who I used to be… but she still lives in me. And she came out a little this morning.

Why Do I Feel Wrong All the Time?

I get into: * hypervigilance and constantly reading between the lines * feeling like you have to “solve” every interaction * internalized shame and always assuming you’re the problem * and how these patterns might come from the environments we grew up in This episode is about what happens when awareness turns into self-blame and why everything can start to feel personal, even when it’s not.