Clean Your Toilet Podcast

S09E01: The Top Cosplayer Curse - On Hate, Identity & Fame | Xiaoyukiko & Angjolie Mei | CYT S9

“People told her cosplay wasn’t a real career.The internet made her famous.Then parts of the community turned on her.”What happens when your passion slowly becomes your identity?In this episode of the Clean Your Toilet Podcast’s Confessions of the Unconventional series, Cosplayer Xiaoyukiko sits down with Angjolie Mei, Accidental Funeral Director for a raw, unfiltered and unexpectedly deep conversation about cosplay fame, online hate, belonging, visibility, and the emotional cost of being seen.From becoming one of Singapore’s most recognised full-time cosplayers to navigating backlash within the cosplay scene itself, Xiaoyu opens up about the pressure of living online, criticism, self-worth, and learning to separate who she is from what she does.Angjolie shares her journey of entering the funeral industry after her father’s passing, navigating a deeply male-dominated space as a young woman, and redefining funerals from mourning death to celebrating life.Together, they unpack:- The hidden loneliness behind unconventional careers- The emotional weight of criticism, judgment, and online hate- Why tying your identity to one thing can quietly destroy you- The masks people wear to survive different environments- How both cosplay and funerals are ultimately about helping people feel seen- The tension between parental expectations and personal calling- What it takes to keep becoming yourself despite resistanceWhat starts as a conversation about cosplay and funerals slowly becomes something much deeper: about identity, belonging, grief, visibility, and the courage to live differently in a world that constantly tries to define you.Funny, unexpectedly philosophical, and deeply human, this may be one of the most unconventional conversations we’ve ever had.Watch till the end for one of the most unexpected parallels ever drawn between cosplay, funerals, and the masks people wear in everyday life.🎙 About the PodcastThe Clean Your Toilet Podcast explores the inner work behind personal growth, leadership, and building a meaningful life through honest, unfiltered conversations.#CleanYourToiletPodcast #Cosplay #Cosplayer #Death #Funeral #Identity #SelfDiscovery #UnconventionalPaths #OnlineHate #InnerWork #AnimeCommunity #SingaporePodcast #LifeAndDeath #Authenticity #WomeninBusiness #PersonalGrowth

He Can’t Be Cancelled — So Here's The Truth | Calvin Cheng, Hun Ming Kwang, Lim Pei Ying | CYT Special 2026

What would you say…if there were no consequences?No boss. No audience to please. No reputation to protect.In this special episode, Hun Ming Kwang and Lim Pei Ying, the team of Clean Your Toilet Podcast. sit down with Calvin Cheng, entrepreneur, investor, former NMP, and one of Singapore’s most unfiltered public voices.He’s financially independent, he doesn’t need to be liked, and that changes how he sees and says everything.But this isn’t just about speaking freely.It’s about what it takes to get there.From riding the dot-com boom to losing it all…From borrowing money just to survive…To becoming President of Elite Models Asia at 26…To building, pivoting, and exiting multiple ventures across decades…This is a conversation about risk, collapse, and reinvention, and what happens when fear is no longer the driving force.Calvin shares:- Why resilience matters more than intelligence - The real reason many entrepreneurs fail (and why some shouldn't even start)- How timing, luck, and setbacks shaped his career- Why you must always have a Plan B, even at the top- The hidden risk of building on brands you don’t own- How financial freedom changes how you think, speak, and live- How he handles lawsuits, criticism, and public backlash- Why he chooses not to enter politics despite strong viewsAnd then it goes deeper into things most people avoid:- Why some truths can’t be said by those in power- The uncomfortable realities behind Singapore’s dependence on foreign talent- Why birth rates are more cultural than financial- What most people misunderstand about geopolitics- Why the world is becoming more ruthless and what it means for small countriesAt one point, he puts it bluntly:The world is not fair, and it was never meant to be.For Singapore to survive, we cannot afford to be naive.If you’ve ever wondered:Is success really earned… or just timed right?What happens when you stop optimizing for approval?And whether most people are actually ready for what's coming...This conversation doesn’t give easy answers.But it will change how you see the game.🎙 About the PodcastThe Clean Your Toilet Podcast explores the inner work behind personal growth, leadership, and building a meaningful life through honest, unfiltered conversations.⏱ Chapters00:00 Why “Clean Your Toilet” Matters03:20 First Principles Thinking08:30 Dot-Com Boom, Collapse & Losing Everything16:10 From Broke to President of Elite Models Asia24:00 Entrepreneurs: Born or Built?30:20 Why Resilience Beats Intelligence36:40 The Power of Asking42:30 Owning vs Renting Your Success48:00 Financial Freedom & Speaking Freely52:00 Lawsuits, Criticism & Conflict56:00 Rejecting a “Conventional Life”59:00 Birth Rates and Cultural Realities1:04:00 Geopolitics & Singapore's Future1:09:00 Why Singaporeans Need to Leave#CalvinCheng #CleanYourToiletPodcast #SingaporePodcast #Entrepreneurship #FinancialFreedom #Geopolitics #HardTruths #Resilience #Leadership #mindsetshift #NoFilter #InnerWork #Singapore #HunMingKwang #LimPeiYing #Coaching #RealityCheck #GlobalPerspective

Special Episode: He Lost Everything and Kept Going | Nat Ho, Hun Ming Kwang, Lim Pei Ying | CYT Seoul 2026

This isn’t just a story about chasing dreams. It’s about what happens after everything falls apart. In this special overseas episode of the team of Clean Your Toilet Podcast, Hun Ming Kwang and Lim Pei Ying sit down with Singaporean singer, songwriter, actor, entrepreneur Nat Ho — live from Korea — to unpack the reality behind reinvention, identity, and staying in the game when things get hard. At one point, Nat lost his income overnight while juggling rent in Korea, a mortgage in Singapore, and the uncertainty of starting over in a foreign country. No safety net. No guarantees. But this wasn’t a story about whether to quit. It was about learning how to keep going without losing himself in the process. Nat shares: - Why anxiety is often rooted in ego and how shifting into service changes everything - The “mirror conversations” that helped him rebuild self-trust - How he channels anger and criticism into fuel (the “cockroach mentality” 🪳) - Why being a “responsible dreamer” matters more than just passion - The "truths" we were programmed to accept about the creative industry (money, delays, survival), how the industry is being marginalised - What it really means to pursue your dreams without losing yourself - How struggling and suffering is optional, while pain is inevitable - why is it challenging for people to ask for help and how can we begin to change that This is a raw, grounded look at what it takes to commit to your dreams, keep showing up for yourself, even when life doesn’t go according to plan. For the most part, most of our plans are merely a reflection of our past experiences. How many of our plans truly work the way we expect it to happen? Sometimes, the answer lies in surrendering to the river of flow and instead of going against life, move with it. If you’ve ever felt stuck, lost, or questioning your path… This one is for you. This is for you to move with life, move with the river of consciousness just as the Han River brought us into Seoul. Growth isn’t about having all the answers, it’s about learning how to let go of our illusions, expectations, perceptions, and keep going, keep commiting to ourselves, our growths, our deepest values and dreams. Walk your dreams as you keep your crown high. 🎙 About the Podcast The Clean Your Toilet Podcast, hosted by Hun Ming Kwang and Lim Pei Ying, explores the inner work behind personal growth, leadership, and building a meaningful life through honest, unfiltered conversations. ⏱ Chapters 00:00 Losing Everything & Starting Over 05:30 Anxiety, Ego & Performance 12:10 Turning Anger Into Fuel 18:45 Asking for Help as a “Strong Person” 25:20 The Reality of the Creative Industry 32:00 AI vs Human Creativity 38:40 What It Really Means to Chase Your Dreams #NatHo #CleanYourToiletPodcast #LettingGo #PersonalGrowth #SelfMastery #MindsetShift #Reinvention #FollowYourDreams #Resilience #SelfTrust #PurposeDriven #InnerWork #LifeLessons #SingaporePodcast #GrowthMindset #EntrepreneurMindset #ArtistLife #CreativeJourney #SouthKorea #InnerWork #HunMingKwang #LimPeiYing

S08E07 - Muhd Feroz bin Haron & Salmah Bte Johari & Brenda Ng - Staying Through The Hard Parts

What does it take to stay together when leaving would be easier, safer, and far less painful? In this episode of Clean Your Toilet Podcast, Feroz Bin Haron (Certified Peer Support Specialist & Recovery Coach) and Salmah Binte Johari (WISDOM Head & Lead Volunteer) open up to Brenda Ng, Chief Fun(d) Officer, The Facilitators Project & Forest School coach, about addiction, incarceration, betrayal, forgiveness, and the quiet cost of loving someone through their darkest seasons. Married for over 30 years, Feroz and Salmah’s relationship has weathered cycles of drug addiction, repeated imprisonment, financial instability, and a betrayal that nearly ended everything. Much of this pain was never spoken about openly; not to family, not to friends, sometimes not even to each other. Feroz reflects on spending most of his children’s formative years behind bars, the shame of wasted time, and the slow, painful realisation that change only begins when denial ends. He speaks honestly about ego, manipulation, relapse, and the moment he finally decided to “walk the talk”. Salmah shares the invisible side of the story. The loneliness of raising children alone, juggling work and caregiving, absorbing judgment from family, and carrying heartbreak in silence. She speaks candidly about choosing her husband when others told her to walk away, the emotional toll of repeated forgiveness, and the line of divorce that was almost impossible to cross. This is not a story of instant redemption or perfect healing. We unpack the layers one at a time. Together, Feroz, Salmah, and Brenda explore the realities that rarely get voiced: ✨ The unseen labour of partners who stay ✨ Why addiction affects the entire family not just the individual ✨ The difference between forgiveness and forgetting ✨ Why voicing out pain can be the beginning of reconciliation This episode reminds us that some of the most painful stories are hidden inside long marriages, quiet homes, and people who appear “strong enough to cope.” If you’ve ever stayed silent to protect someone you love If you’ve ever carried pain because you thought no one would understand If you’ve ever wondered whether people can truly change This conversation will resonate with you. 🧼 Healing doesn’t happen all at once it happens layer by layer. 🚽 Voicing out is not weakness; it’s courage. 💛 And sometimes, the story we don’t tell is the one that holds the most truth. GOODIES FROM HELLO FLOWERS! - Use 'CYT12' at checkout to enjoy 12% off your order! - Minimum spend of $50, one-time use. #CleanYourToiletPodcast #GetReal #InnerWork #PersonalMastery #WhatTrulyMatters #StoriesWeDontTell #Marriage #Recovery #Forgiveness #SecondChances #Healing #Divorce #Singapore #Podcast

S08E06 - Maya Atiqah & Brenda Ng - Learning To Keep Going

What drives years of self-harm and abuse from a young age? How does it go undetected until it is almost too late? In this episode of Clean Your Toilet Podcast, we step into the world of 19-year-old physiotherapy assistant, Maya Atiqah, who recounts with Brenda Ng, Chief Fun(d) Officer, The Facilitators Project & Forest School coach, her journey of navigating self-harm and abuse as a coping mechanism to what she could not express growing up. Family instability, emotional neglect, and the absence of a safe space to speak meant that much of what she was feeling stayed locked inside. With distress is often being misread in young people, well-meaning comments like “you have a good life” can unintentionally shut conversations down, and result in the escalation of coping mechanisms. A lack of awareness and the inabilty to recognize what she was doing to herself meant things spiralled out of control and threatened her well-being in more ways than one. Together, Maya and Brenda explore the parts of mental health that rarely get talked about openly: ✨ Why silence can protect or hurt us ✨ How being misunderstood can deepen loneliness ✨ What it means to be given choice and agency when opening up ✨ Why asking the right questions matters more than offering quick advice ✨ How healing often begins when someone finally listens without judgment Maya’s story reminds us that not all pain looks dramatic, and not all cries for help sound loud. If you’ve ever struggled to explain what you’re feeling, felt dismissed because your pain didn’t look “serious enough”, or wished that someone would ask and truly listen... This episode will resonate more than you expect. 🧼 Silence doesn’t mean there’s nothing there. 🚽 Being asked with care can change everything. 💛 And sometimes, the story we don’t tell is the one we never learned how to say. #CleanYourToiletPodcast #GetReal #InnerWork #PersonalMastery #WhatTrulyMatters #StoriesWeDontTell #TheSilenceInside #ListeningMatters #Youth #MentalHealth #Abuse #Survivor #Singapore #Podcast