Let Go To Grow

God said "NO!" My Journey back to Celibacy...

If y'all haven't yet go add me on Instagram @ _pa222ionay_ As y'all know recently I went through a breakup and I expressed in a previous episode how I felt called to be celibate again, but in my relationship this time instead of being single. Even though I didn't listen to Gods order right away, he made it to where I did not have a choice but to obtain from sex with my ex partner. In this episode I dive into some of the spiritual and physical challenges I faced when I chose my fleshly desires over Gods guidance. I hope through this episode you are reminded of your self worth, the importance of speaking with conviction in your boundaries, having the courage to stand in your calling even if you may loose people in the process, and that you hear unity and community in my story and know you're not alone in yours. I'm still growing and learning so much about myself which continues to evolve each and everyday and I'm so grateful I get to share all my deepest inner thoughts, passions, and my life with y'all. Don't be afraid or ashamed of your growth and changes when they feel right to you because remember, the right people will support and uplift you no matter what. Ase

New Year New ME 2026

With each and every year that passes were forced to reflect on what our lives consisted of and if it's something we can look back on and be proud of or disappointed in. I've been through a whole lot of shedding as the year of the snake ended. The lessons life taught me forced me to grow in a lot of different ways, most of which I tried to avoid if I'm being honest. But when God has a plan for you, he does not care if that's not what you want to do because it's what you NEED to do. This episode is for all my lovers. As a community I feel like a lot of us are going through spiritual warfare, especially in our relationships, and many of us are navigating the heartbreak that comes after. But if y'all are able to take away anything from my shared experience, I hope y'all embrace wonder and adventure without letting fear of the unknown hold you back; listen to your intuition even if it goes against someone you love, life is too short to prioritize other peoples feelings over your own, its okay to be a lover just be a smart lover lol, and most importantly don't be afraid to be yourself no matter how ever-changing you are. Ase

Growing In Love

I really wanted to open this space up to have an open and vulnerable conversation about ways to overcome certain obstacles when they come up in our healthy relationships. A lot of the time we are taught to notice the red flags and run as soon as we spot them. But what happens when problems come up in those green flag relationships? Me and Tre wanted to open up about some of the challenges we've faced in our relationship and things we've had to change, such as our mindsets and perspective, to gain a better sense of ourselves and each other. I truly think it's a beautiful thing to be able to experience growth in this way, and to have someone truly love you and want the best for you comes with it's own set of lessons to learn. Whether that be unlearning old toxic habits that are preventing your growth or learning new ones that help encourage it. Nevertheless we are still out here glowing, growing, and thriving, and I hope you all are able to take some gems from this episode because at the end of the day its nothing but love here. If y'all have any episode ideas for me go ahead and dm me on Instagram @pa222ionay__ I'd love to hear from y'all! <3 Also let me know it y'all liked that snippet of our song at the end of the episode! BDNTRE- Ride ft. Pa222ionay (me!) Out Now on all streaming platforms!

2025... Identity Crisis?1?

Happy 2025 everyone! I hope the new year has been blessing y'all as much as its been teaching y'all. Life has been moving at a fast pace for me since the new year started and I've just been trying to pretty much catch my mind up with me reality. They say that you should surround yourself with people who are doing better than you to motivate you to do better. But what happens when it does the opposite and just makes you feel inadequate instead? I've been struggling with identity crisis and feeling unconnected to my purpose lately and being around someone who does, doesn't always make you feel better. This episode is about my mental and spiritual journey with overcoming procrastination, imposter syndrome, and coming to terms with the fact that gods timing simply just isn't my timing. I hope y'all like and resonate with this episode. Make sure y'all follow me on Instagram @ pa222ionay__ for all episode updates. Much love belovedz!

Having Peace in the Mist of Life's Chaotic-ness/ Learning to Choose Better People to Have Around You/ Not Being Afraid to Ask for Help!

There was just a full moon during the eclipse season okay, so I know its not just me going through it right now lol! This episode was inspired by some chaotic life changes that I've been going through recently. From being faced with financial troubles, to job struggles, and legal troubles. Yes y'all heard me, legal troubles. Your girl has been getting tested left and right but I'm just making sure that with all of these obstacles that are built to test me, I'm learning from them. So that I am able to make better decisions in the future. But one of the reasons why I am able to handle any of this weight that I am enduring is because of God's love and grace first and for most. But also because of my amazing support system I have, that I am able to call on and rely on during the times when I need them the most. Its so important for us to put or pride and egos to the side when our soul is crying out for help. Taking advantage of the resources and people you have around you who love and care about you. As well as adapting healthy outlets to express yourself and relieve some of the built up tension and stress. This is an episode for everyone who's just been going through it, and who needs some words of encouragement to keep going, keep trying, and keep believing in yourself. Because God believes in you, the people who love you believe in you, and I believe in you. If no one has told you this yet, you're going great and I'm proud of you! And remember, you're not alone! <3