all my friends are queer

Messy, Grieving Emotions

How do you let go of people that created you? That became integrally a part of you? Currently, my only strategies are "write," "cry," and "keep building no matter how many times the Legos fall down" and I gotta be honest, I'm kind of sick & tired of the baggage...

1.21.26: self soothing

Dear future me: did you start feeling guilty about putting yourself & your needs first? Listen to this time you had tasty dinner at home and felt proud instead.

Alpha Energy is FEMININE

Reaction to The Originals Season 5, Episode 6. Of course the three stooges of this cursed episode are men. My girl deserved SO MUCH BETTER TREATMENT 😭

Commentary: The Red Pill documentary by Cassie Jaye

It's like... If I only saw TERFs as my impression of the feminist movement, I would have hated it. Just as I hated the men's rights activism movement for the extremists I saw online in my early 20s. I learned a lot from this documentary, and it has expanded my views in healthy ways. I stopped identifying as a feminist online when I felt the movement was too cringey--something people would misjudge me on. I didn't want to be viewed as a radical or be placed alongside them, but I never stopped taking a feminist stance or supporting some important women's rights issues. I've always been an activist. Rather than renounce feminism, I'll adopt men's rights activism, too. I have already done that in many ways in the past 5-10 years, it's just something I can now say with confidence. The concept of dialectics revolutionized my world view. If you think they can't coexist, you're wrong. If they could work together, all the progress they (both sides) claim to be nearly impossible would be happening already.

growing pains (hit different when you're transgender)

it's a lonely feeling to look around at a virtually non-existent support system. EVERYTHING has changed over the past two years. it's hard to know which direction to choose to move forward. discussion about complex and abusive family dynamics. life has really taken my history of fighting against the odds and put me to the test. in some ways, I feel like a failure... pero, I chose to make these impossibly painful life experiences shape me into a better person and role model. maybe I'm less of a failure than I give myself credit for?