Confessions of a Lost Soul

Confession #024: I'm Done Waiting for Life to Start

I realized I've been waiting for life to start. In this episode of Confessions of a Lost Soul, I talk about spending a month in San Diego after our original moving plans changed and how easy it is to accidentally put life on hold while waiting for certainty. Instead of treating this month as a placeholder, I'm trying to live like a local, get outside my comfort zone, and remind myself that life is happening right now — not someday when everything is figured out. This is a real conversation about uncertainty, slowing down, and learning to stop waiting for permission to enjoy your life. No perfection. No pretending. Just the messy middle of building a life before everything is figured out.

Confession #023: Life Doesn’t Care About Your Plans

I had a plan — and then life changed it. In this episode of Confessions of a Lost Soul, I talk about preparing to move to California with a job lined up, only for my nurse practitioner license to take longer than expected and leave everything feeling uncertain. Instead of driving across the country with all our things, we put the full move on hold and flew out to spend the month in San Diego. This is a real conversation about disappointment, flexibility, timing, and learning that plans can change without meaning you failed. Sometimes life does not follow your timeline — and sometimes the best thing you can do is adapt, breathe, and let life life. No perfection. No pretending. Just the messy middle of changing plans and still moving forward.

Confession #022: When Your Bedroom Is Your Only Sanctuary

In this episode of Confessions of a Lost Soul, I talk about the emotional reality of living with family when it is not fully by choice. The gratitude, the frustration, the lack of privacy, the bedroom-as-your-only-sanctuary feeling, and the quiet shame of wanting independence but not being able to fully afford it yet. This is not about blaming parents. It is about being honest that support can be a gift and still feel emotionally hard. No perfection. No pretending. Just real talk about adulthood, money, independence, and wanting a life that feels like your own.

Confession #021: I Don’t Know How to Rest Anymore

This week I officially graduated with my master’s degree — something I’ve been working toward for over six years. In this episode of Confessions of a Lost Soul, I talk about the long road from working in finance and feeling unhappy, to going back to school, becoming a nurse, and working toward becoming a psychiatric nurse practitioner. I share the late nights, the studying, the pressure, and what it felt like to have school become “job number two” after work ended. But this episode is also about what happens after you reach the goal. The pride, the fulfillment, the “now what?” feeling, and the weird guilt of finally being able to rest. No perfection. No pretending. Just the messy middle of achievement, identity, and learning that rest is not laziness.

Confession #020: There Is No “Right” Decision

How do you know if you’re making the right decision? In this episode of Confessions of a Lost Soul, I talk about spending a week stuck between two choices — moving to San Diego or Los Angeles — and the pressure to choose the “perfect” path. This is a real conversation about overthinking, indecision, and the fear of regret. What I’ve started to realize is that there is no perfect decision — only different experiences. And sometimes, what matters most isn’t the place… it’s the people. “A beautiful place isn’t paradise if you’re lonely… and an ordinary place can feel magical when you have your people.”