Holistic Chaos

19: Reclaiming your worth: Resilience, self-trust & rising after being told you’re “too much” with Becky Louise Smith

In this episode, I sit down with Becky Louise Smith, a survivor of domestic violence and an empowerment coach who helps survivors reclaim their self worth and learn how to love again. Becky shares the midlife moment that changed everything. She was told she needed to be “more resilient” at work after months of being unsupported and mistreated. That single word hit a nerve, not because she was weak, but because she had already survived so much. It became the moment she stopped performing, stopped shrinking, and decided she was no longer available for spaces that did not respect her. We talk about what resilience actually is. How the ability to feel deeply can be a form of strength. Why crying is not a lack of capacity, but often proof of it. Becky shares the non negotiables that keep her grounded, including movement, rest, and returning to gratitude and presence. We also explore the inner shift that happens when you start filtering your life through simple questions like: Does this protect my peace? Do I feel respected here? Am I safe in myself? This conversation is for anyone who has been told they are too emotional, too intense, too much. It is also for anyone who has spent years trying to earn belonging by making themselves smaller. If you are navigating a hard chapter of life, rebuilding after heartbreak, or learning how to choose yourself again, let this be a reminder. Your feelings do not make you fragile. They make you real. And you are worthy. Connect with Becky (she/her) Instagram: https://beckylouisesmith [https://beckylouisesmith] Facebook: https://beckylouisesmith [https://beckylouisesmith] LinkedIn: https://beckylouisesmith [https://beckylouisesmith]

18: Listening to your body in midlife: Perimenopause, care + reclaiming yourself with Mandy Unruh

In this episode, I sit down with Mandy Unruh, an intuitive tarot reader and astrology enthusiast whose work has woven through birth support, fitness, massage, writing, and the kind of helping that comes from deep listening. Mandy shares her biggest midlife WTF moment, perimenopause, and the long, exhausting, deeply personal road of trying to get the care her body has been asking for. We talk about what it is like to navigate symptoms that push you past the point of white-knuckling it, the frustration of broken healthcare systems, and the tenderness of needing support in ways that feel both vulnerable and necessary. Together, we explore what changes when you stop overriding yourself. The difference between being rushed and being truly seen. The courage it takes to choose what feels right in your body even when fear, money, and urgency are pulling the wheel. We also talk about the quiet healing of being met by a partner who helps you return to your values, and the strange, meaningful moments when the universe seems to mirror back that you are worth the investment. If you are moving through a chapter of life where your body feels unfamiliar, your confidence is shifting, or you are learning to trust yourself in new ways, you will find so much resonance here. Let’s talk about what becomes possible when you listen to your body, stay close to your truth, and remember that you always have choices. Connect with Mandy (she/her/they/them) Website: https://www.mandyunruh.com [https://www.mandyunruh.com] Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mandyunruh/ [https://www.instagram.com/mandyunruh/]

17: Leaving the life that looked perfect: Values, alignment + reclaiming yourself with Rosa Hope, PhD

In this episode, I sit down with the brilliant and deeply grounded Rosa Hope, PhD—award-winning astrophysicist, mentor, and mystic—for a raw, illuminating conversation on midlife awakening, self-trust, and the courage to rewrite a life that looks “successful” on paper but feels misaligned in the body. Rosa shares her powerful story of leaving a prestigious research career after it began to erode her health, energy, and sense of self. She opens up about the moment everything cracked open, how she learned to listen beneath the noise of achievement, and why “just because you can doesn’t mean you should” might be the most liberating midlife tagline. Together, we explore the tower moments that reorder a life, the grief and grace of letting old identities fall away, the long journey back to internal validation, and the deep work of reclaiming your values when the world has taught you to override them. If you’re standing at a crossroads, questioning the path you’re on, or wondering whether the discomfort you’re feeling is a sign—you’ll find so much resonance in this conversation. Rosa’s wisdom is an anchor: soulful, practical, and fiercely honest. Let’s talk about what becomes possible when you follow your inner compass, trust your enough-ness, and remember that hard does not equal bad. Join Rosa for her Pay-What-You-Wish Past Life Regression + Meet Your Guides online workshop on Saturday, December 6, 2025 at 1pm EST / 10am PST / 6pm GMT. Learn more here: https://rosa-hope.com/online [https://rosa-hope.com/online] Connect with Rosa (she/her/they/them) Website: https://www.rosa-hope.com [https://www.rosa-hope.com] Instagram: https://instagram.com/itsrosahope [https://instagram.com/itsrosahope] Facebook: https://facebook.com/itsrosahope [https://facebook.com/itsrosahope]

16: Rebuilding from the dust: Self-trust, grace + the Liberation Codex with Jen Allyson

In this episode, I sit down with the fiercely inspiring Jen Allyson—oracle, Dragon Mother, and creator of The Liberation Codex: Architects of the New Eden—for a deep, soul-stirring conversation on deconstruction, healing, and building a life rooted in self-trust. Jen shares her journey from a seventh-generation, orthodox Mormon upbringing to a full spiritual and personal awakening—divorce, coming out, and learning to live beyond prescribed roles. She reveals how soul reclamation, shadow integration, and everyday practices (yes, even karaoke) helped her find her voice and her path. We explore yin/yang as a clearer lens for “masculine/feminine” energy (change vs. constancy), what Jen calls inverted systems, why foundations take time, and how her channeled light-code art and Liberation Codex support portals to mastery and creative sovereignty. Whether you’re disentangling from an old identity or navigating a midlife WTF moment, this episode invites you to slow down, listen in, and choose the path of self-trust. Consider it a love letter to the part of you that’s rebuilding—proof that you can glow like hell anyway. Connect with Jen (she/her) Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/jen.allyson/ [https://www.instagram.com/jen.allyson/] Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/jenallyson [https://www.facebook.com/jenallyson]

15: The power of self-healing: Energy work, motherhood + radical self-acceptance with Jordana Rachelle

In this episode, I sit down with the fiercely honest Jordana Rachelle—psychic medium, ancestral energy healer, and empowerment coach—for a raw, soul-stirring conversation about motherhood, shadow work, and finding your footing after everything falls apart. Jordana shares her journey through severe postpartum depression, anxiety, and rage—and the spiritual awakening that followed—describing how energy work, intuition, and radical self-honesty helped her reclaim her voice and path. She also opens up about complicated mother–daughter dynamics, setting boundaries with spirit, and what it means to be seen as both a healer and a human. We explore embracing the shadow (not bypassing it), energetic consent in readings, why some timelines are off-limits, and the role of discomfort as a compass for growth. We also talk about rebuilding identity in midlife, letting projects complete (and letting them go), and learning to trust your own inner timing. Jordana also shares details about her upcoming event, Safe to Soften: A nurturing space to release the pain of parental wounds. This healing circle is for the woman who was emotionally neglected, learned to suppress her needs, or still carries pain from her childhood. Jordana invites you to lay down what you’ve been holding and remember it’s safe to soften. Whether you’re navigating postpartum echoes, family wounds, or a full-on midlife WTF, this conversation is a reminder that healing isn’t polished—it’s powerful. Slow down, tune in, and let your truth lead you. Learn more about Jordana's upcoming event, Safe to Soften, here: https://wix.to/nOqBMBC [https://wix.to/nOqBMBC] Connect with Jordana (she/her) Website: https://jordanarachelle.com [https://jordanarachelle.com] Instagram: https://jordanarachelle [https://jordanarachelle] Facebook: https://jordanarachelle [https://jordanarachelle]