The Circle of the Panda Podcast

Full Circle with Barrett Counterman

JD here. Just click this link to get a message to me. Peace [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2240907/fan_mail/new] In this closing episode of Circle of the Panda, JD talks with Barrett Counterman, host of the Swaggy Life Podcast, about living with cerebral palsy, honest prayer, and finding purpose when life is slow and hard. Barrett shares how he’s rebranding his show around disability, faith, and everyday struggles, and why choosing vulnerability and perseverance can turn even discouraging seasons into a full-circle story of hope.

Athena Dean Holtz: Part 3: It is a Journey

JD here. Just click this link to get a message to me. Peace [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2240907/fan_mail/new] In this third and final conversation with Athena Dean Holtz, the discussion explores why healing, trust, and spiritual growth are a lifelong journey rather than a quick fix. Athena shares how pain, betrayal, and unmet expectations can become places where deeper healing happens, and why suffering does not mean God has abandoned us. The episode also reflects on the importance of honesty in faith, making space for weakness, and learning to pause and ask God what to do next in the middle of hard seasons. Athena closes by pointing listeners back to the truth that God is faithful, present, and able to bring good even out of deep hurt.

Athena Dean Holtz: Part 2: Trust and Forgiveness

JD here. Just click this link to get a message to me. Peace [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2240907/fan_mail/new] In this second episode of a three-part series, Athena Dean Holtz shares profound insights on trust, forgiveness, and healing. The conversation explores why trusting God remains difficult even after witnessing His faithfulness, drawing parallels to the Israelites who doubted despite seeing the Red Sea part. Key Topics Miraculous Provision: Athena recounts facing a $400 phone bill with no funds when a Vietnam veteran—himself struggling financially—knocked on her door after God told him to empty his savings account. The amount was exactly what they needed. Misused Scripture: The episode addresses how prosperity gospel twists Biblical verses, particularly explaining that the "give and it will be given to you" passage is about forgiveness, not financial prosperity. Taking Responsibility: Athena shares how she asked herself "What was my part in this tragedy?" after being deceived by a false shepherd who stole everything from her. This led to recognizing three critical failures: ignoring God's prompting to seek healing for PTSD, not learning to study Scripture in context, and dismissing red flags because she didn't trust God to provide another way. Healing Through Service: A beautiful thread emerges about caring for her dying mother during her final four months—transforming a broken, critical relationship into sacred moments of healing and reconciliation. The episode concludes with a powerful truth: "He sees, he loves, and he heals," emphasizing that trust and healing are inseparable.

Full Circle: Trauma, Healing, and the Faithfulness of God with Athena Dean Holtz- Episode 1

JD here. Just click this link to get a message to me. Peace [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2240907/fan_mail/new] In this opening conversation of a three-part series, host JD sits back down with Athena Dean Holtz, founder and publisher of Redemption Press, to talk about her powerful memoir, Full Circle: Coming Home to the Faithfulness of God. JD shares how he read the book in a single 24-hour period—falling asleep and waking up with Athena’s story—because it spoke so personally to his own journey, and he wanted that same impact for listeners. Athena opens up about why she finally wrote the book after years of horrific spiritual abuse, and how a close friend served as her ghostwriter, helping her weave together past radio shows, TV interviews, blogs, and personal memories into a true page-turner. She explains how that writing process became another layer of healing, forcing her to stop escaping into work and instead face deep pain she had long avoided. The conversation goes straight into the hard stuff: early childhood sexual abuse, a forced abortion as a teenager, domestic violence, and the lingering effects of unprocessed trauma. Drawing on her experience working with Vietnam veterans and their families in the late 1980s, Athena describes how trauma shapes the brain, how triggers pull us back into fight-or-flight, and why our brains often cannot distinguish between real and perceived threats. JD and Athena also wrestle with the vulnerability that comes from a genuine hunger for God, and how the enemy can exploit that longing through lies and spiritual abuse. They talk about the “gullibility of Christians,” exploring how predatory pastors and influencers can weaponize Scripture, preach feel-good “no suffering” messages, and leave people questioning whether they can trust God at all. Speaking directly to listeners who are carrying their own unresolved pain and crying out for healing, Athena urges them not to walk this road alone. She highlights the importance of finding truly safe, biblically grounded people who will lovingly point out blind spots, as well as the value of professional, Christ-centered counseling and small-group communities. Athena closes by sharing one of her ongoing prayers from the Psalms—asking God to help her not lie to herself—so she won’t stay isolated and controlled by old wounds. This episode sets the stage for part two, where JD and Athena will dive deeper into the crucial topic of trust after spiritual and emotional betrayal.

Dogs - Our Companions - Marilyn Doss

JD here. Just click this link to get a message to me. Peace [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2240907/fan_mail/new] In this heartwarming episode of the Circle of the Panda podcast, JD talks with long‑time friend and dog groomer Marilyn Doss about how following her love for dogs led her out of an unfulfilling office career and into work that gives her deep joy and purpose. Marilyn shares how grooming became her calling, why she prefers working with dogs over “people with attitudes,” and how she gives back by grooming shelter and rescue dogs for free as they transition into new homes. She tells the moving story of a neglected long‑haired dachshund who became the dog of her life, what it was like to lose him, and why the bond between people and dogs can feel as strong as family. Through stories of homeless individuals who feed their dogs before themselves and of matching rescued dogs with grieving owners, Marilyn paints a picture of dogs as companions, healers, and “God’s gift to humanity” who remind us what unconditional love looks like.