The lonely queers

#44 'The Great Distraction: Forgetting you're a Powerful Being'

#44 'THE GREAT DISTRACTION: FORGETTING YOU'RE A POWERFUL BEING' Do you also feel disconected sometimes? From yourself, from others, from your intuition, from your power. Not really knowing what the meaning of life is?  This episode is about the distraction that keeps us dis-connected in life and somehow it has become our truth. But is it really a truth we shall live? Being distracted to be dis-connected? For many it is a truth... if not all of us.  Here's another truth: We are inherently connected. At the soul level, we were never separate. This connection is our natural state. Everything telling you otherwise? We find distractions everywhere and we loose focus and live as blind sheeps sometimes, and the endless distractions are keeping you from your inner wisdom and shaping our reality. But it doesn't have to be bad an dark as we realize we live in a world of super distractions. We can stay aware and stay with the light. By choice. When you remember who you truly are - when you reconnect with your essence - you realize you are infinitely powerful. Distractions or not - the light in you growing stronger as you realize that is unbeatable.  So I'm asking you: What would change if you stopped believing the false idendity of separation? What becomes possible when you remember that you're connected to an infinite source of power, wisdom, and love? What do you need? What opens up when you realize that every woman you meet is an extension of the same divine feminine energy that flows through you? This is the remembering. This is the awakening. This is coming home to your truth. You are not separate. You have never been separate. And you are far more powerful than you've been allowed to believe. It's time to remember, beloved. It's time to reconnect. It's time to reclaim what was always yours.  Thanks for listening // ASH This podcast is made for inspiration and entertainment only.

#43 'Do you dare to expose yourself?'

#43 DO YOU DARE TO EXPOSE YOUR SELF? This episode is an inspiration for you too sense. To let go of the emotions of the past and the control of your life for a moment and sense into your natual powers. There is a truth that many of us don't want to admit: We have a shadow side that's obsessed with control. And as women, we've often been conditioned to become masters of it - managing everyone's emotions and the future, orchestrating every detail, ensuring nothing falls apart on our watch and we are not a fan of the unknown and unforeseen. We control our schedules down to the minute. We control how we're perceived. We control our environments, our relationships, our bodies. We even try to control outcomes that were never ours to control in the first place. What are we really controlling and do we know? or dare to expose? This episode is an invitation to get uncomfortably honest with yourself. What if the very thing keeping you safe is also keeping you small? What if your need to control everything is actually preventing the magic, the flow, the beautiful surprises that life wants to bring you? Exposing yourself - truly seeing yourself and the crying inner child - takes immense courage. It means looking at the parts of you that aren't pretty or polished. It means asking difficult questions: * What am I really afraid will happen if I'm not in control? * What do I need? * What do I want? When we dare to expose ourselves - to look inward with raw honesty - something miraculous happens. We discover that our needs are not weaknesses. Our longings are not shameful. Our vulnerability is not something to hide but something that connects us to our authentic power and to each other. But once we turn inward and truly see ourselves - all of ourselves and the shadow side CONTROL - we can finally create lives that actually nourish us instead of depleting us. Lives where we can ask for help without feeling like failures. Lives where we honor what we need instead of constantly sacrificing ourselves on the altar of everyone else's comfort. And here's the beautiful ripple effect: When you stop trying to control everything and everyone around you, you give your loved ones permission to be themselves too. You model what healthy boundaries look like. You show them that it's safe to be human, to be imperfect, to need support. Your healing becomes their healing. Your freedom becomes their freedom. So I'm asking you again: Do you dare to expose yourself? This episode will challenge you, trigger you, and hopefully set something free within you. We're going deep into the shadow side of control - not to shame you for it, but to help you understand where it comes from and how to transform it into something healthier, something that serves your highest good. And it takes awareness. And discernment. The most powerful thing you can control is your relationship with yourself. Thanks for listening. //ASH  This podcast is made for inspiration and entertainment only.

#42 'Shadow sides and false projections'

#42 SHADOW SIDES AND FALSE PROJECTIONS It's time for us to gently turn toward those hidden parts of ourselves with curiosity and love—not judgment. This episode is about our shadow sides. About our inner child (again). When we lovingly acknowledge our shadow sides, something beautiful happens: we naturally begin creating a more authentic life, responding to situations with greater emotional maturity, and opening ourselves to more joy, abundance, and positive energy. It's like finally letting sunlight into rooms of your heart that have been dark for too long. So what exactly is a shadow side?  Imagine every person you meet as a kind mirror, reflecting back aspects of yourself—some comfortable, some not so much. When we encounter someone, we're not just seeing them; we're experiencing a dance of energies, where all sorts of thoughts, beliefs, and feelings get quietly activated within us. And here's the tender truth: everyone we meet stirs something in us. It might be their confidence, their way of speaking, how they dress, their laughter, their silence, the way they move through the world, or simply their presence. Sometimes what gets activated feels wonderful—we feel inspired or uplifted. Other times, we feel uncomfortable, irritated, or even upset.This is where our shadow sides come into play. When someone triggers a strong negative reaction in you—that uncomfortable feeling that rises up seemingly out of nowhere—that's often your shadow side saying, "Pay attention! There's something here for you to see." A shadow side is simply an aspect of yourself that you've had a hard time accepting or embracing. It's a part of you—maybe even a tiny part—that you've unconsciously decided you don't want to be or have. Throughout your life, especially from childhood, there are certain qualities, emotions, or ways of being that you learned were "not okay" or "not acceptable." Maybe you were told it wasn't nice to be angry, or that being too sensitive was weak, or that wanting attention was selfish. So you lovingly tucked those parts of yourself away in the shadows, thinking you were protecting yourself or becoming a "better" person. The truth is that those buried aspects don't disappear—they live quietly in your mind and body, alongside your wounded inner child - that younger version of you who didn't always get the love, acknowledgment, or understanding she needed – when you were a child. A little girl. She's still there, holding hands with your shadow sides, and sometimes she speaks through your reactions to others. When someone mirrors back a quality you've rejected in yourself, your inner child and shadow sides often react strongly. You might find yourself thinking, "I would never be like that person. I'm so much better than that." And while you are indeed a beautiful, worthy woman, the strong reaction itself is a gentle invitation to look within and ask, "What is this really about?" Every time someone triggers you—yes, even that person who seems particularly challenging—you're being offered a precious gift. It's an opportunity to grow both spiritually and personally. The key is bringing loving awareness to what's actually happening inside you, rather than immediately projecting your discomfort onto them. Your shadow sides aren't enemies to defeat—they're lost parts of you waiting to come home. And every person who triggers you is actually offering you a map back to wholeness. Thanks for listening. //ASH This podcast is made for inspiration and entertainment only.

#41 'Perception and soul pain projection'

#41 PERCEPTION AND SOUL PAIN PROJECTION Dear listener, what if everything you see "out there" is actually a sacred mirror reflecting what lives within you? This episode invites you into one of the most profound spiritual truths I've discovered on my journey (and a hard one sometimes): our perception shapes our reality in ways we rarely recognize. The world we experience isn't an objective truth—it's a unique reflection filtered through our beliefs, wounds, fears, and dreams. We are each other's mirrors, walking through life showing one another what we most need to see in ourselves. As human beings sharing this earthly experience, we're constantly reflecting back to each other our own inner landscapes. When someone's behavior triggers you, when their opinions make your blood boil or sad or irritated, when their lifestyle choices confuse or upset you—pause and ask yourself: What is this showing me about myself? Your reactions are your greatest teachers. We call them our shadow sides. The way you respond to others' actions, ideas, opinions, and ways of being reveals so much about your own spiritual and personal development. It illuminates where you're still healing, where your shadow sides are hiding, and where your inner child is crying out to be seen and held with compassion. It’s a simple as that and yet so complicated.  When you're truly at peace with yourself, very little in the external world can disturb that peace. When you've integrated your shadows and healed your inner wounds, you can witness others' journeys without judgment or reactivity. You become the calm observer, rooted in your own wholeness. But this isn't about perfection—it's about awareness. The shadow self—those parts of us we've rejected, denied, or hidden away—plays a profound role in how we perceive reality. We're all works in progress, continuously evolving and expanding. Some days we'll see clearly, recognizing our projections and taking responsibility for our perceptions. Other days we'll forget, getting swept up in the drama of blame and righteousness. Both are part of the journey as the soul pain and inner child are our players too. Whatever qualities you judge most harshly in others are often the very qualities you haven't made peace with in yourself. The person who annoys you with their neediness? Perhaps you've suppressed your own need for support. The one whose confidence bothers you? Maybe you're not allowing yourself to shine. This is shadow work, beloved—and it's some of the most transformative healing we can do along with taking care of our inner child. Thanks for listening. // ASH This podcast is made for inspiration and entertainment only.

#40 Meditation no. 6: 'Nobody and everything at the same time'

#40 MEDITATION NO. 6: NOBODY AND EVERYTHING AT THE SAME TIME  This episode #40 holds special magic, and I need to share why. It's been exactly 9 months - exatly 40 weeks today - since I felt that first spark of inspiration in late December 2024—like a sacred pregnancy of the soul, birthing this podcast into existence. Exatly 40 weeks ago I published my first episode (December 30th 2024). This is my episode no. 40 in 40 weeks. I am quite proud. And here we are, 40 episodes later, in late September, having poured thousands of words into the collective consciousness, each one an offering of love and awakening. But this episode... this one is different. On this special day.  We're going to take a journey together—you and I. So take my hand, close your eyes, and let's journey home to your true power. Let's discover together what becomes possible when you remember that you are not just in the universe—you ARE the universe, experiencing itself through your precious, irreplaceable perspective. This episode is speical and is channeled from my higher self to you on this special day. This episode is about tapping into your power. Your true potentials. Your opportunities, your-self-reflection, and your self-love.   Is it possible to relax and meditate as you are in a state of mind where you are ‘no body’ and still ‘everything’ at the same time? Being in this state of mind that is known to you. This episode isn't just about concepts or ideas – or only inspiration - it's about coming home to the magnificent being you've always been beneath all the layers of conditioning and doubt. We're going to explore something sacred together: how to tap into your true potentials, embrace your infinite opportunities, and fall deeply in love with the beautiful soul that is you. Remember it is just a breath away. This is who you really are: limitless spirit having a temporary human experience. In this divine state of being, you're not bound by the stories you've been told about what's possible for you. You're not limited by past failures or future fears. You exist in the eternal now, where your soul's deepest dreams are already real, already waiting for you to claim them. As I felt to share these words in the early morning hours, I felt the universe flowing through me in a way that took my breath away. ‘GO DO A PODCAST NOT’… was the words in my mind. What you're about to hear isn't just from me—it's channeled from the same source of love and wisdom that lives within you. It's a gift from the cosmos to your soul, delivered at exactly the moment you need to hear it. A sacred short but yet powerful meditation woven with words that will help you remember who you truly are. Because in a world that constantly tries to make you smaller, I want to remind you of your vastness – of your inner powers. In a reality that whispers you're not enough, I want you to feel your infinite worth and to remember it. Every cell in your body is vibrating with the same energy that creates galaxies. Every breath you take connects you to every living thing – but we have forgotten and it makes us live a life where we don’t use our potentials and inner power. So take my hand, close your eyes, and let's journey home to your true power with this episode. Let's discover together what becomes possible when you remember that you are not just in the universe—you ARE the universe, experiencing itself through your precious, irreplaceable perspective. This is your invitation to step fully into your light.  Thankts for listening. //ASH This podcast is made for inspiration and entertainment only.