The Spiritually F*cked Podcast!

31. Why I ghosted everyone for two months

Taylor shares what happened after taking 2 months to completely disconnect from the world, after her trip to india fell through.  No social media, no friends, no work… Just herself and her tonights (YIKES). What she found was a radical return to herself. And she’s here to share it all: * How connections can act as distractions * What happens when you put your life/trust in others hands * The true gift of silence * Abandonment anyone? * Returning to yourself… Because why else are we here? This episode explores what happens not only when you choose silence, but when you choose yourself. When you stop reaching outward and begin listening inward. YAY. WE ADORE YOU!!!    ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ [https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/] https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ [https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/] youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast [https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast] tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie [https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie] website: https://sadflowerswritten.com [https://sadflowerswritten.com] podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 [https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477] substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten [https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten]  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships [https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships]

30. The closing of a chapter: Four years, a thousand versions of me + the cyclical nature of life

In this epi, Taylor reflects on the closing of a chapter that held so much of her becoming. It’s been 4 years in the home that marked the beginning of her life in Boulder… to now preparing to leave it. (The house, not boulder - lol) What once felt like a beginning is now asking to be honored as an ending. We talk about the bittersweet nature of change and the beauty of this cyclical life. How some things are meant to be lived fully, and then released. Enjoyed in every moment. Let this message be an invitation to be present with your life as it is now. To recognize that even the moments you wish you could hold onto forever are temporary… and that’s what makes them sacred. Because this life, this version of you, this chapter is just a blip in eternity. And maybe that’s exactly why it matters so much. Thanks for being here <3 ~ Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ [https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/] https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ [https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/] youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast [https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast] tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie [https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie] website: https://sadflowerswritten.com [https://sadflowerswritten.com] podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 [https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477] substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten [https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten]  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships [https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships]

29. Subconscious healing, rewiring your mind & being human: Heart led yap with Lilly @ Home to Self Podcast

Another heart led yap with Taylor’s Boulder bestie Lilly from Home to Self Podcast!! This epi feels like sitting on the floor with your best friend, realizing… you’re not crazy, you’re just human. Lilly is a subconscious healing coach and founder of Home to Self. Taylor sits down and interviews her to talk about what it actually means to come back to yourself. We go deep into the patterns that quietly run our lives: people pleasing, fear of abandonment, overthinking, needing to prove our worth, and how so much of it isn’t “who we are,” but what we learned to believe. Lilly shares her journey from obsessive health + control into subconscious healing, and how the real shift didn’t come from doing more but from looking within. We yap: * Why your brain is wired to keep you safe (not fulfilled) * How subconscious beliefs shape your relationships, identity and reality * The hidden root of people pleasing (and why it’s not your fault) * What it actually means to “rewire” a pattern * The difference between intuition vs. fear * Why overthinking is really under-feeling * How to work with your mind instead of against it * The balance between doing the work… and actually living your life Host reminder: Healing isn’t about fixing yourself, it’s about remembering who you were before you learned you weren’t enough. “You are both a masterpiece and a work in progress… at the same time.” - Lilly  Lilly links: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lillymterry/ [https://www.instagram.com/lillymterry/] Home program: https://home-program.info/ [https://home-program.info/] Home to Self Podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/077MdAVa2izkqWuMQUJBsR [https://open.spotify.com/show/077MdAVa2izkqWuMQUJBsR]   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ [https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/] https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ [https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/] youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast [https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast] tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie [https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie] website: https://sadflowerswritten.com [https://sadflowerswritten.com] podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 [https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477] substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten [https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten]  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships [https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships]

28. STAR WEATHER REPORT - The planets in April

Welcome to the new series! Star weather report - Where we break down what’s happening in the sky and what that means in your life! YAY!  Aries season brings a powerful PUNCH into our passions. We chit chat all about the new identity our hearts are calling us to step into and what this energy means in your life. Kicking off April is the full moon in libra, with the invitation to return to the relationship with your inner child. Chiron in aries anyone? The wounded healer comes through with a message from your past. We go into the delicious aspects of sensual venus in taurus and what this means in your love and relationships.  We tap on mercury, mars and the way these two planets influence how you communicate and move through the world. What better season to build trust in your self than aries season?  This epi explores the energetic blueprint of April and how to move with the planets… not against it. A message from your favorite astrologer: Take what you like and leave the rest. April brings some powerful shifts, how are you implementing? WE ADORE YOU! AND ALL YOUR ASPECTS!!! Thanks for being here.   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ [https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/] https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ [https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/] youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast [https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast] tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie [https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie] website: https://sadflowerswritten.com [https://sadflowerswritten.com] podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 [https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477] substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten [https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten]  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships [https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships]

27. Astrology, intuition & self-trust: Heart-led yap with Lilly @ Home to Self Podcast

In this epi, Taylor sits down with her Boulder bestie Lilly from Home to Self Podcast to explore how astrology can help us understand our patterns, reconnect with our intuition, and step into a new identity rooted in self-trust. We move into deeper conversations around self-abandonment, subconscious conditioning, reparenting the inner child and what it actually looks like to trust yourself in everyday decisions. This episode is a reminder that real change happens when we stop outsourcing answers and start coming home to ourselves. Topics covered: * What the current astrology is activating collectively * Why intuition is the most important tool right now * The difference between intellectual insight vs embodied change * Learning to stop outsourcing answers to other people * Releasing self-abandonment and people-pleasing patterns * Discovering what you actually want vs what conditioning told you to want * Fear of embarrassment, rejection, and being seen * Reparenting yourself with compassion * Sovereignty and the power of choice This episode goes pretty deep… but also comes with mad sense of humor and poetic lightness that will reconnect you back into your heart. WE ADORE YOU!! Thanks for being here fam. Ways to work with Lilly:  Here HOME program: https://home-program.info [https://home-program.info]  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lillymterry/%E2%81%A0 [https://www.instagram.com/lillymterry/%E2%81%A0]    ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ [https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/] https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ [https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/] youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast [https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast] tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie [https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie] website: https://sadflowerswritten.com [https://sadflowerswritten.com] podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 [https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477] substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten [https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten]  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships [https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships]