In My World🌍💕

Jumping forward from the previous episode, I detail what this year away from recording has looked like for me and what my future looks like now because of it. We celebrate Love, compassion, patience and perseverance and what they can do for us when we give them time. Recorded 11 months after ‘Evolution is scurry’ this episode is an answer to that cry for help. To that cry for growth and change even though it wasn’t easy. I truly have learnt ‘new lows take you to new highs’ but I am beaming with gratitude. The pains and frustrations acting as fertiliser for my wants and now birthing a beautiful new space to bloom in. Uploaded from a place where I am harvesting all the beauties I have managed to produce I understand what a blessing time can be x

Change is often uncomfortable but Evolution can be scary! In today’s episode I go over themes like self doubt, fear and the long term effects of burn out. Our dreams and goals are often used to propel us forward but sometimes the weight of fear and perfectionism can have them hold us back. We can want change but the grip hold those cyclical thoughts and sabotaging behaviours can have on us is something we dont give ourselves enough credit or time to overcome as frightened habitual beings. Its already hard getting out of bed and facing the world when you dont want to but no one talks about how much harder it can feel to get out of bed and face the world when you DO want to! Back 11 months on what was only the beginning of some real scuRry evolutionary events in my life, This is a peek into a world ending and really through having this conversation, a new one beginning. Seeing and saying these feelings so clearly was the start of something new and really important to admit because it was in others doing exactly this that I started to grow x

Helloo~ I am back! after a year away with an episode from last year! Ahaha and I am just hit with revelation after revelation. This winding process that is this journey can really bring so much to our face that we never would have thought we’d see and I’ve found the best way to cope with this is to listen, be present and take accountability where I can. Accountability for my behaviour and outlook towards myself and those that I was unaware of towards others! I think the most healing understanding that I’ve come to realise with this episode is that we are only ever trying our best and working with what we have. That means some steps will be missed and our friend vulnerability will be our guide and foundation! I would run away from seeing myself so clearly but now its all I want to see. Even though this was Me a year ago, I still felt to share ~ x

I never understood this in primary school but I gave it a go anyway and that lead me to codependency, self abandonment and unhelpful attachments🥴 when I looked at this phrase through the loving gaze I now have for myself I realised that if I just flip it, its fine! Others still get love, care and respect but not before I receive them from myself! How do we expect to give something we ourselves are not familiar with? I could not teach something I had not learnt? This new rule of thumb has laid stable footing for more relationships that are healthy, full of of love and aligned with me and us at core.

This conversation with myself is detailing the beauty of growth and how its never lost~ I remember this thought being revolutionary for my healing and innerstanding and has been one of my most important and supportive pieces of Divine advice I’ve given myself. As I’ve grown I adore the power of the subconscious and inner world where nothing I experience, learn or know is ever lost but instead stored forever even if deep in the depths of my soul when I am yet to venture. I have had epiphanies and awakenings! That have changed my life and then been promptly forgotten the next day :P and absolutely wanted to skin myself alive for what felt like taking 9 steps back, being negligent of my spiritual property or just not serious but when I realised that even if its not at the forefront of my mind or soothing my heart, baby its somewhere and when its time it will come back again to be understood. “If I thought it once I can think it again” has been my motto for 3 years in regards to this and you know I take it like your teacher telling you that by the end of the semester, you will be learning this. I know what topics I will be covering but I havent learnt them yet but will when it comes up and its my time to understand them~ no need to rush the syllabus, reading ahead will do nothing when I dont understand the information and knowledge that proceeds it. Progress is saved, where you are in the journey is safe and you are always where you are meant to be🌹🌱