Between Light and Shadow : Stories of God, Creation, and Us

The Shadow Feminine - Lilith as Archetype of Power and Exile

In this episode of Between Light & Shadow: The Story of God, Creation, and Us, we step into one of the most misunderstood figures in ancient wisdom: Lilith — the first woman, the exiled feminine, and the archetype of unclaimed power. But this isn’t a retelling of folklore. It’s an exploration of the human psyche, the parts of ourselves we suppress, and the spiritual inheritance of being both light and shadow. Inside this episode, we explore: * The truth behind Lilith’s exile and why her story was erased * How she embodies the shadow feminine — intuition, sexuality, rage, and truth * The link between abandonment wounds, relationship patterns, and self-betrayal * Why the feminine that refuses to shrink is often labeled dangerous * How exile becomes a mirror for our own suppressed power This is a story about reclaiming what was stolen — not just from mythology, but from us. It’s about understanding the parts you learned to hide so deeply that they became the shadow driving your choices, relationships, and identity. If you’ve ever felt silenced, punished for your voice, or taught to fear your own power, this episode will speak to the part of you that’s been waiting to be seen. Raw. Honest. Spiritual. A journey into the feminine shadow we were never supposed to understand.

The Serpent and the Fruit - Desire, Temptation, and the Human Condition

In this episode we step into one of the most misunderstood stories of human history — the serpent, the fruit, and the moment everything changed. But instead of talking mythology, we talk psychology. We talk shadow work. We talk us. This episode explores desire, temptation, and the inner conflicts we inherit just by being human. We unpack why we crave what harms us, why we’re drawn to what awakens us, and how the very thing we fear is usually the part of ourselves we’ve buried the deepest. Christina breaks down the symbolism of the serpent as the unconscious, the fruit as forbidden self-knowledge, and the fall as the moment we stepped into awareness, responsibility, and choice. This is not a story about punishment — it’s a story about awakening. If you’re someone who feels torn between who you were and who you’re becoming… If you’ve ever wrestled with desire, shame, secrets, or “forbidden” impulses… If you’ve ever been tempted by a relationship or a pattern you knew would break you… This episode will hit home. Expect truth. Expect reflection. Expect to see yourself in ways you never have.

The Kabbalah — The Beginning of the World (Shadow Work, Ego, Trauma & Consciousness)

In this episode of Facing the Mirror, we explore Kabbalah, creation, and the spiritual anatomy of the human psyche through a trauma-informed, attachment-aware lens. This is one of the deepest and most transformative breakdowns of how the universe began and how that story mirrors the roots of shadow work, trauma responses, emotional patterns, and relationship dynamics. We start with the ancient Kabbalistic teaching that everything began as one unified light. For creation to unfold, the light had to contract, shatter, and separate — a cosmic blueprint that mirrors the emotional fragmentation humans experience through abandonment, attachment trauma, and early developmental wounds. This episode draws a direct line between the breaking of the vessels and the creation of your ego, your defenses, and the parts of yourself you exiled to survive. You’ll learn how this original spiritual separation becomes the foundation for: • Shadow work • Love addiction and trauma bonds • Nervous system dysregulation • Fearful avoidant and anxious attachment • Patterns of choosing emotionally unavailable partners • People-pleasing and self-betrayal • Codependency and fantasy bonds • Repetition compulsions • Hypervigilance after trauma We break down the emotional “creation story” behind your patterns — how the ego formed as a protector, why the shadow holds the traits you repress, and how your inner child and inner teenager carry the wounds created during your earliest experiences of separation, neglect, or unmet needs. This episode also explores: • The connection between Kabbalah and attachment wounds • How ego forms in response to trauma and survival learning • Why spiritual awakening requires psychological integration • How subconscious programs shape your relationships • Why shadow work is essential for breaking toxic cycles • How emotional triggers reveal unhealed spiritual wounds • Why you’re drawn to partners who activate childhood patterns • The real root of “why you tolerate too much” You’ll hear how ancient spiritual wisdom aligns with modern psychology, somatic healing, and trauma-informed care. This is shadow work without fluff, spirituality without bypassing, and emotional healing without self-blame. By the end of this episode, you’ll understand: • Why you repeat cycles you intellectually know how to avoid • How your nervous system stores the “shattered vessels” of your past • Why your shadow holds your greatest power • How integration begins when you stop running from yourself • How to reclaim the parts of you that were abandoned • Why healing your patterns starts with understanding where they were born This episode is for anyone healing from: • Narcissistic abuse • Toxic relationships • Emotional abandonment • Trauma bonds • Love addiction • Breakups and unrequited love • Hyper-independence • Codependency • Attachment trauma And for anyone who craves deeper clarity about their purpose, their patterns, and their consciousness. If you’re ready for spiritual psychology, radical honesty, and a deeper understanding of who you are at your core, this episode will change how you see yourself, your relationships, and your healing. Press play and meet the version of you that existed before the wound — and the one rising now.

The Dark Union – When Lilith Met Lucifer

What happens when shadow meets shadow? In this episode of Facing the Mirror, Christina dives into the archetypal story of Lilith and Lucifer — not as demons, but as reflections of our own repressed power, desire, and defiance. This isn’t about evil; it’s about evolution. Through a transpersonal lens, Christina unpacks how the myth of their union represents the sacred marriage between our light and our darkness — the inner rebellion that awakens when we stop seeking external validation and start embracing self-sovereignty. You’ll explore themes of divine duality, ego death, and the seductive pull of liberation versus illusion. This episode challenges you to ask: 🔥 What parts of me have I demonized to stay “good”? 🔥 Am I rejecting what actually makes me whole? 🔥 What happens when I meet my own darkness — and choose to love it? Listen with an open heart. Reflect with an unflinching mind. Because the real “dark union” isn’t between Lilith and Lucifer — it’s the one within you. 🎧 Hosted by Christina Stuller — Counselor, Life Coach & Creator of Tranquil Balance. For sessions, courses, or community: www.healingmyfeelings.com #Lilith #Lucifer #ShadowWork #FacingTheMirror #TranquilBalance #ChristinaStuller #DivineFeminine #DarkFeminine #HealingJourney #InnerAlchemy #TranspersonalPsychology #SpiritualAwakening #FemininePower #LightAndDark #SelfAwareness #HealingPodcast #TraumaHealing #SpiritualGrowth #LilithRising #ShadowIntegration #SelfLiberation #EmpowermentPodcast

Lilith – The First Rebel Woman & the Origins of Shadow Work

I received a lot of feedback and yes! there was another episode recorded for this. By popular demand - here is that other recording