The Monologue of Charlie

24 - Reading, writing and rambling

Happy three year anniversary! That makes me smile. Feb 18, 2023 was when I posted my first episode; although I began recording episodes in Dec 2022. But I wanted to create 10 episodes before I published, because I didn't want to be just a one hit wonder. And now look at me, I have a full 24 episodes, and several other short readings. I love what I've done with this, and I'm excited to continue to create. I have neglected this podcast for far too long. Recently, I have been feeling a pull to come back to it, and dedicate more time to building and creating. I have several recordings that have just been sitting in my drafts folder, waiting their turn to shine bright to the world. I know not why I have delayed thus, but I am performing corrective action, now. This was originally recorded on Dec 29, 2023, shortly after the Christmas episode I posted here. I started out by reading the daily writing, but then as I am want to do, I rambled. It was so much fun for me! And I learned a lot about myself as I rediscovered things that I forgot that I knew. It was so lovely today listening to this, over two years later, and realizing how profound some of those thoughts were. I often surprise myself when I speak, because the words that come out of my mouth aren't always mine. I suppose that's the meaning of inspiration, because I hadn't previously known that I knew that thing, and then it comes out and teaches me something new. (I feel warm in my chest as I write this.) That is a beautiful concept, and I believe that is the main reason why it's so important for ALL OF US to find a creative outlet which allows the universe to manifest itself through us. We are merely vessels, conduits to the divine. He/She/They are inside of all of us. All of Us!

Power writings 10, 11, and 12

Strong affirmational power writings that I originally wrote and recorded back in 2023 - Jun 10, 27, and Jul 16.

Motivational writings 9

Have you ever read the book called The Artist's Way, written by Julia Cameron? If not, you should. It's amazing! Her belief is that everyone is an artist, everyone is a creator. But the world beats it out of us from a young age, receiving discouragement from teachers and parents who have no idea the harm they are doing. The good news is that everyone has the capacity to reignite their creativity, no matter how old they are or where they are in their lives. All it takes is practice and consistency, and the flood gates will be opened! Everyone's "art" is different, and you shouldn't box yourself in, putting limits one what constitutes art. Any creative endeavor you have is art. For me, it's writing. I had a blog in college, I wrote over 300 posts. I loved it so much. And then I lost myself for a decade or so, but I am beginning to encounter glimpses of that old soul who experienced so much joy from writing and consequently from life. They go hand in hand. So lately I've been trying to be more consistent at writing every day. I'm not perfect at it, but certainly getting better. And that's all it takes, is trying to be a little better today than we were yesterday. Part of the innate joy of creativity is sharing it with others, even if it's just with 1-2 friends or family members. Creativity longs to be shared and cultivated as it naturally inspires creativity in others. Like begets like, joy begets joy, love begets love. I've been sharing my writings lately with a special friend, one who was also lost but now is found. Interesting how certain people work their way back into your life, even after so much time has passed. She has been a wonderful support and has encouraged me to share my writings with the world! So, I've recorded myself reading them, and that's what I'm posting here. I really enjoy hearing myself read my own writing because I feel like I learn so much more from it. I also plan on posting the actual words on a blog or something as well. I still haven't figured out that avenue yet. My old old blog was on blogger, which it's still there. Then 5 years ago I created a new blog on wordpress, but that is now old and I was a different person 5 years ago. So I feel like I need another new blog, maybe on substack? I don't even know how that works. I have a patreon account, but also don't know how it works. I am recognizing in myself a strong craving for attention and recognition in the form of praise from strangers and monetary increase. I observe that craving, and I let it go. Similar to what Elizabeth Gilbert says in her book, Big Magic (Another fantastic read that I highly recommend), creative ideas want to express themselves in the world. If you don't do it, someone else will. So this is my attempt at getting my creativity into the world. Do what you will with it, I have done my part. Adieu.

Creative writings 8

1 prose and 2 poetry, from October 20, 2025. It's been a very long time since I've posted anything on here. I think I felt discouraged that the podcast wasn't blowing up and for some reason I thought it would be a magically quick and amazing process of reaping bounteous rewards from simply sharing vulnerability with the world. I assumed everyone would be attracted to it automatically and my sensitivity would be seen and congratulated. Assumptions and expectations are an interesting thing, it is wonderful to have a brain with so much thinking power; but it's also an inaccurate place to live. I have decided to no longer attach my expectations with lack of promotional marketing. I am a projector, not a generator. I don't have the spoons or the energy or the motivation to do all that it would take to get my voice heard. I will become active again doing what I love, which is sharing my heart with the universe even if no one is listening. I do it because it's who I am, and I will trust that those who need to hear this will find their way to this podcast. And maybe doing this is only for my own personal benefit, and for me that is enough. I am enough, as I am.

One year anniversary - Draft

Place holder. Will edit later. (Feb 18, 2026 edit - turns out I never edited or added anything here. That kind of makes me sad. It's so interesting that often we have such high hopes or good intentions for something, and then time passes (as it does regularly), and all of a sudden two years have gone by and I think I need to give up on the idea of this one year anniversary podcast episode. I don't believe I ever even recorded anything. It was just an idea, and it never got developed. Granted, my life at that time was stressful, and then I got laid off from my job two months later, and then started so many different adventures and my life has taken a completely different path than I ever imagined. There were certainly rough times down that road, but I feel like I am at a good place now. I just posted an old recording marking the three year anniversary of my podcast, and I plan on posting more stuff in the coming weeks and months. For truly, this podcast, although it has zero regular listeners or followers, brings me so much joy. I love it! And for me, that is enough.)