When Blue Turns Black

A call for help

In this episode, Former Queensland Police Officer Vonny T gives a brutally honest account of not coping with the pressure and how she tried to escape the constant noise in her head and feelings of no self-worth with a failed suicide attempt.  Vonny T shares this story to help others understand the mindset of a person who is feeling that way, in the hope that they may see the warning signs in either themselves or a friend/family member and encourage that person to seek help.  That life really is worth it and it is okay to ask for help. See omnystudio.com/listener [https://omnystudio.com/listener] for privacy information.

Feeling the pressure

In this episode, Former Queensland Police Officer Vonny T talks about feeling the pressure starting to build in her work and personal life.  Vonny T describes two incidents that happened whilst she was on duty that added to her feeling more isolated than ever.  These two incidents, even though of a minor nature, compounded the stress that she was under.  This made the small every day challenges seem bigger and harder to overcome.  Vonny T describes it as time bomb ticking away, waiting to go off. See omnystudio.com/listener [https://omnystudio.com/listener] for privacy information.

An armed hold up at the Railway Hotel

In this episode, Former Queensland Police Officer Vonny T talks about attending an Armed Hold Up in progress at the Railway Hotel in Goondiwindi. Vonny T describes attending the job in the role of a First Responder and then how his job affected her emotionally, adding to her journey with PTSD. See omnystudio.com/listener [https://omnystudio.com/listener] for privacy information.

A time to be brave.

In this episode, Former Queensland Police Officer Vonny T talks about the job that was the initial trigger for her journey with PTSD. On the 24th of December, 2000, Vonny T attended two jobs in company with a male Sergeant at Albany Creek in Brisbane. The first job was the sudden death of a male person who’s family members tried to resuscitate him. They then attended another residence where they were confronted by a man in an extremely agitated state who threatened Police whilst armed with a spade, pick axe handle, weight lifting bar, and an axe.  The man refused to drop his weapons and continued advancing on Police who shot him. See omnystudio.com/listener [https://omnystudio.com/listener] for privacy information.

Murder in the country

On the 16th of March, 2014, Former Queensland Police Officer Vonny T attends the scene of a violent rape and murder of a 24-year-old woman on the banks of the MacIntyre River in Goondiwindi, The woman, Alexis Jeffrey, a mother of several young children, had been out at the pub the night before and she failed to return home. Vonny T shares intimate details about her experience as the responding officer to the crime scene and how these events triggered a downward spiral with PTSD as she struggled to come to terms with the brutality and senselessness of the murder. See omnystudio.com/listener [https://omnystudio.com/listener] for privacy information.