Before I Knew

Episode 11 Before I knew…What happened to her

There comes a point where silence no longer feels like protection. In the final episode of Season 1, I speak on the weight of being misunderstood, labeled, and judged for the effects of things no child should ever have to carry. This episode is not only about survival… it’s about what happens when pain goes unnoticed, questions go unasked, and accountability never fully meets the harm that was done. It’s about looking beyond behavior… beyond assumptions… and finally asking the question that should have been asked all along: “What happened to her?” This finale is raw. Reflective. Honest. Before I Knew — Episode 11 💜

Episode 10 Before I Knew… It Was a Pattern

At some point… it stops feeling random. In this episode, I reflect on what it means to finally recognize the pattern—how things that once felt separate, confusing, or isolated begin to connect in a way that changes how you see everything. This isn’t about looking back with judgment. It’s about understanding what you couldn’t see at the time—and what that understanding reveals now.

Episode 9 Before I Knew…Kindness could be something else

There’s a difference between kindness… and what looks like it. In this episode, I speak on something I didn’t fully understand at the time—how being given things, attention, or “help” can sometimes come with something behind it. This isn’t just about what was offered… it’s about what was intended. I reflect on how those patterns can start early, how they carry into adulthood, and how easy it is to accept something when it feels like you need it. And more importantly—what it means to recognize it for what it really is.

Episode 8 Before I Knew… What I was looking for

Episode 8 In this episode, I reflect on what it feels like to seek connection, attention, and a sense of being wanted— without fully understanding what I actually needed at the time. Sometimes what feels like closeness… isn’t. And sometimes what you accept… is shaped by what you’ve gone without.

Episode 7 Before I Knew… It didn’t leave me.

Not everything leaves when it’s over. In this episode, I reflect on what it feels like when past experiences continue to live in your body—showing up in your reactions, your habits, and the way you move through the world. This isn’t about what happened. It’s about what stayed.