Closed for Maintenance

be still and know.

Some episodes are planned. This one wasn't. I sat down to record something else today and something in me wouldn't move toward it. Not because I was tired or distracted. Because it wasn't true. And I've learned that forcing what isn't ready is its own kind of pretending. So I got quiet. And this is what came out of that quiet. In this episode I'm getting honest about where I actually am with this podcast, with creating, with the pressure to keep producing...and why I'm learning that stillness isn't the absence of faith. It might actually be the fullest expression of it. We talk about the temptation to strive, why striving is so attractive (and so costly), and what it means to anchor your confidence not in what you produce but in what you know. Because be still and know aren't just two words, they're two separate invitations. And you can't really do one without the other. If you've been pushing through when something in you keeps saying stop this episode is for you. Scriptures referenced: Psalm 46:10 · Matthew 6:26 · Matthew 26:41 · Isaiah 30:15 · 1 Peter 5:7 · Philippians 4:19 · Galatians 5:25 Grab the In You Journal [https://www.natashaweston.com/inyoujournal] Join Among Us [www.natashaweston.com/amongus]! Leave a review on Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/closedformaintenancepod?mibextid=YMEMSu]! Support the CFM Podcast here [https://closedformaintenance.captivate.fm/support]! Follow Natasha on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/officialtottie]! Join Natasha's Group Chat here [www.natashaweston.com]! Follow CFM on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/closedformaintenancepod]! CFM is produced by Tot Spot Network.

the long way home.

Some paths don't look like progress...until you're far enough along to see what they were building. In this episode, I'm sharing my full origin story for the first time in full context. From dropping out of college and figuring out my next move from my mom's couch, to my dad handing me a one-way train ticket to New York City to chase a dream I couldn't fully name yet. I built a life there... a brand, an identity, a version of success that made sense on the outside. But something was shifting on the inside. Then I lost my job. No warning, no explanation. And the very next morning, I walked into a bookstore and found the only autographed copy of a book on prayer, and that moment changed everything. This episode is about what happened after. The surrender. The rebuilding. The full circle moment of being back at my mom's house...but this time with clarity, peace, and purpose instead of confusion. What once felt like being stuck now feels like covering, support, and alignment for me and my son Tyler. Nothing was wasted. The detours, the delays, the seasons that felt like setbacks — they were all part of it. And if you're in the middle of something that doesn't make sense yet, this one's for you. You're not behind. You just might be in the middle of your own long way home. And eventually you'll realize...you were never lost. You were being led. You can also watch the full episode on Youtube [https://youtu.be/qdlBufJk5y4]. Join Among Us [https://www.natashaweston.com/amongus]! Grab the In You Journal [https://www.natashaweston.com/inyoujournal] Leave a review on Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/closedformaintenancepod?mibextid=YMEMSu]! Support the CFM Podcast here [https://closedformaintenance.captivate.fm/support]! Follow Natasha on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/officialtottie]! Join Natasha's Group Chat here [www.natashaweston.com]! Follow CFM on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/closedformaintenancepod]! CFM is produced by Tot Spot Network.

broken beyond repair?

Have you ever made a mistake and immediately felt the urge to fix it, hide it, or carry the weight of it on your own? In this episode of Closed for Maintenance, Natasha reflects on a small moment that turned into a powerful reminder about grace, surrender, and the way we often try to repair things in our lives without bringing them to God first. Sometimes the very things we worry have ruined everything are the same things God is inviting us to place back in His hands. If you’ve ever felt like you’ve made a mess of something, or like there are parts of your life that need repair, this conversation is a gentle reminder that nothing is beyond restoration in God’s hands. You can also watch the full episode on YouTube [https://youtu.be/w0HUjNzOCKE]. Grab the In You Journal [https://www.natashaweston.com/inyoujournal] Leave a review on Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/closedformaintenancepod?mibextid=YMEMSu]! Support the CFM Podcast here [https://closedformaintenance.captivate.fm/support]! Follow Natasha on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/officialtottie]! Join Natasha's Group Chat here [www.natashaweston.com]! Follow CFM on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/closedformaintenancepod]! CFM is produced by Tot Spot Network.

breathe again.

In this deeply personal episode, Natasha reflects on what it means to learn how to live again after years of survival mode. Growing up, she watched her parents work hard to provide but rarely slow down to enjoy life…a pattern she later realized she had quietly repeated in her own adulthood. At 37, a quiet realization changed everything: if she didn’t learn how to live now, she might spend her entire life just getting through it. This episode is an honest conversation about breaking generational survival patterns, rediscovering joy that isn’t tied to circumstances, and learning how to stop postponing your life for a future that may never feel “ready.” Natasha shares the practical ways she’s learning to live again in real time…from choosing joy rooted in God, to creating space for everyday living instead of periodic escape, to making intentional choices even when money, timing, or life feels uncertain. If you’ve been holding your breath waiting for things to settle before you allow yourself to live… this episode is your permission to exhale. You can also watch the full episode on YouTube. [https://youtu.be/NVrZMrvqRak] Grab the In You Journal [https://www.natashaweston.com/inyoujournal] Leave a review on Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/closedformaintenancepod?mibextid=YMEMSu]! Support the CFM Podcast here [https://closedformaintenance.captivate.fm/support]! Follow Natasha on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/officialtottie]! Follow CFM on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/closedformaintenancepod]! CFM is produced by Tot Spot Network.

get back up...again.

Sometimes the hardest part isn’t falling down...it’s believing you’re allowed to get back up. In the Season 3 premiere, I’m talking honestly about what it looks like to lose momentum, feel out of alignment, and wrestle with the tension between faith, creativity, and obedience. There was a season where I was still consuming God’s Word, but not fully living it out, and the result was confusion, noise, and a lack of clarity in my creative life. This conversation is about recognizing where compromise sneaks in, how distraction can dilute direction, and what happens when you choose obedience even when it’s uncomfortable. On the other side of that decision, I found clarity again, not just creatively, but spiritually. If you’ve been feeling stuck, discouraged, or unsure how to move forward after a setback, this episode is a reminder that falling isn’t the end of the story. You’re allowed to pause. You’re allowed to realign. And you’re allowed to get back up again. Closed for Maintenance is a space for honest conversations about faith, rebuilding, and learning how to live with intention...one episode at a time. If this episode resonates, consider subscribing, leaving a review, or sharing it with someone who needs the reminder today. You can also watch the full episode on YouTube [https://youtu.be/uHOgAmLPTgw]. Leave a review on Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/closedformaintenancepod?mibextid=YMEMSu]! Support the CFM Podcast here [https://closedformaintenance.captivate.fm/support]! Follow Natasha on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/officialtottie]! Follow CFM on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/closedformaintenancepod]! CFM is produced by Tot Spot Network.