Please See Above

Episode 17 — Starting From Experience (Guest Host Alexandra Alvarez)

This week, Please See Above welcomes special guest host Alexandra Alvarez, also known as @TheStudioCityBarbie, for a deeply honest conversation about what it really means to start over. After losing her brother in 2016, Alexandra moved to Los Angeles to pursue a career in film and television while quietly battling dark and self destructive thoughts. When her mother’s cancer resurged, she made the difficult decision to move back home to San Antonio to support her family. Now in Las Vegas, she reflects on rebuilding her life once again. This is not a story about starting from scratch or wiping the slate clean. It is about starting from experience. About carrying grief, ambition, responsibility, and resilience all at once. A powerful conversation about loss, reinvention, and the courage it takes to begin again differently. It's Eric's favorite Episode to date!

Episode 16 — Half His Age by Jennette McCurdy

This week on Please See Above, Eric reflects on seeing Jennette McCurdy in person during her book tour for Half His Age, and the profound, eye-opening experience of hearing her speak candidly about the writing process behind the novel. Eric shares his deep appreciation for McCurdy’s commitment to nuance — her rejection of black-and-white narratives, her willingness to sit with discomfort, and her belief that there is something deeply real and truthful living inside those uneasy spaces. He reflects on her perspective on embracing rage as a powerful, often misunderstood emotion, and how hearing her articulate that reshaped the way he understood both the book and its emotional weight. He also had a genuinely wonderful time, and yes — got a signed copy of the book… so there’s that lol.

Episode 15 — Why Are We Like This?

In this episode, Eric reflects on his past relationship patterns and asks a question he keeps coming back to: why do we, as humans, put ourselves in situations that end up breaking our hearts?Through honest storytelling and uncomfortable self-reflection, he walks through past relationships, repeated cycles, and the in-between moments that shaped how he learned to love — fear of being alone, unmet needs, emotional avoidance, and coping in ways he didn’t yet understand.Rather than approaching these experiences with shame or blame, this episode holds them with compassion and curiosity, ending with reflection on where he is now — more aware, more present, and learning how to love without abandoning himself.

Episode 14 — Emo Ground Zero

This week, Eric shares an unplanned, mostly unedited episode recorded from a place of emotional heaviness.He reflects on what it feels like to love deeply and not always feel seen in return, and the quiet grief that can come with questioning the reciprocity of that love. He’s here and there—naming the weight of emotional imbalance and the discomfort of finding himself in the middle of things that aren’t his to resolve.He also sits with nostalgia, especially around the holidays, and the longing for the family he once had—the necessary illusion of togetherness that once held everything together. He allows himself to sit with the hard reality that his family, as he knew it, is disintegrated.There’s no big takeaway here—just honesty, presence, and allowing the weight of things to exist without rushing to fix them.

Episode 13 — Low Battery, Loud Thoughts

Recorded while sick (and later confirmed COVID), this weeks' episode explores what happens when your body is depleted and your mind goes into overdrive. Eric reflects on how illness lowers emotional defenses, making old insecurities and trauma feel louder and more convincing. From emotional overwhelm to a disappointing onesie moment, this episode connects the dots between physical exhaustion and mental spirals. This isn’t regression—it’s depletion. And sometimes, the kindest thing you can do is rest.