46 and Widowed: Life, Love and Family

Where Is Momma?

Welcome to Season 2. What do you say to a 3 year old when he starts to ask about why his mother is not alive? This was the question that I found myself having to answer in the latter part of last year.

Acceptance Is Not Goodbye

This month's episodes covers the last stage of grief, acceptance. It is probably one of the hardest stages to work through and is still a work in progress.

Depression Sets In

This month I discuss the Depression stage of grief as I recently found myself coping with the emotional and physical effects of Debbie's loss. I was surprised by this as I had been trying so hard to fight off these feelings and building walls up to protect myself. However, here I am finding myself at times sad, loss and at times feeling hopeless.

Life, Love and Family

Me at my most vulnerable. This month I have decided to allow the walls down when it comes to answering questions about my grief. It is an unedited view of my life and how my world has changed since Debbie's death. The questions I used were from Grief Counseling Homework Planner by Phil Rich (2001); published by John Wiley & Sons, Inc. Also check out the Spotify playlist, When We Fall Apart. A collection of songs that helped me get through this episode.

Debbie and Paul's Last Adventure

This month's episode covers Debbie and my last adventure together that started at least a year before she got sick and was finished six months after her death; that was the adoption of our son, JoJo. That is the nickname Debbie gave him. I believe that God does all things with purpose and having JoJo come into our life at this time was a blessing to us both. It is fitting that his name means, "God heals."