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32 | sam believ & dr. clara porwoll (ayahuasca: the door to healing)

april of this year (2025) i had my first experience with ayahuasca, tucked away with the trees on the edge of the colombian jungle. after his own ayahuasca journey, sam believ created lawayra retreats to make the wisdom of this sacred medicine accessible to a wider range of people. his vision, presence, and approach is truly a gift to this world. alongside him in this conversation is the at the time head of facilitation, dr. clara porwoll. while i am still in my process of integrating all that i learned through my own journey, and it has not felt right to share my experience yet, i share this conversation with you with trust that it will resonate with those whom it's meant to.if we keep our minds open, the possibilities are limitless. links: * sam believ [https://sambeliev.com/] * the ayahuasca podcast [https://ayahuascapodcast.com/] ***dr. clara porwoll - western medicine vs amazonian medicine. lessons after 3400 cups served [https://open.spotify.com/episode/0rReNui6G51lBbl507yjtQ?si=y32QE4xjQUe6LJjDQOAYIQ] (the ayahuasca podcast) * lawayra retreat [https://lawayraretreat.com/] (colombia) This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit taylorkilpatrick.substack.com/subscribe [https://taylorkilpatrick.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_2]

31 | leo szn: showing up, feeling confident, & my creative process

felt inspired to share, so i did. this episode i talk about where i’m at creatively, my challenges showing up authentically, and my fears around doing so. i share what i’ve been doing to embody leo season, how it’s empowering me, and how my creative endeavors are affected. lastly, i geek out about debra silverman’s approach to astrology, and what i learned about my personal progressed moon. mentions:- debra silverman [https://debrasilvermanastrology.com/]- free progressed moon workshop [https://debrasilvermanastrology.com/progressed-moon-workshop] (debra silverman) This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit taylorkilpatrick.substack.com/subscribe [https://taylorkilpatrick.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_2]

30 | hi again, witness me

after an 11 month hiatus, the pod is back! i genuinely took the mic in my hand (instead of leaving in its stand), took three deep breaths, closed my eyes, and spoke freely. and damn, it felt ~right~ i didn’t have a plan going into this episode, i only wanted to share my truth about why i haven’t released episodes, what the podcast is to me, and how i plan to courageously move forward with it. i share where my head and heart have been where i hope they’ll lead me. the takeaway is this:i promise nothing beyond deep, vulnerable conversations around anything that’s on my mind. and i hope you feel safe to explore with me. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit taylorkilpatrick.substack.com/subscribe [https://taylorkilpatrick.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_2]

29 | robyn couch (the dance of life, self-reflection, emotion, and art)

*TAY FAV* in this episode, robyn and i dive deep into what it's like to exist as an introspective human. how our experiences and inner thoughts influence how we go through the world, what we believe, and how we behave. i love talking with others who love to look inward, feel deeply, accept imperfections, and work consistently at growing and bettering ourselves, and this conversation checks all the boxes. robyn is vulnerable and real, and in being so, we were able to connect on so many levels. if you're creative, sensitive, and introspective, i think you'll find this episode relatable and inspiring. SPOILERS: under the bridge - PLEASE consider sharing or donating to robyn's movie, ultraviolet catastrophe, if it feels right for you: https://igg.me/at/ultravioletcatastrophe [https://igg.me/at/ultravioletcatastrophe] - find robyn on instagram: @robynlynncouch key topics: * robyn’s big 2 - who and how * spiritual mediums as tools of self discovery * empathy vs sympathy, emotional vs sensitive * our journeys in pursuing art * mental judgments and how we talk to ourselves * owning who we are without qualifiers * a deeper look at our judgments and envy * robyn’s film! ultraviolet catastrophe * taking control of our own lives / releasing victim mindset * the voices / words in our head * manipulation, and holding multiple truths at once * the journey is eternal - we are healing * AA and safe spaces * reframing how we view others’ art mentions: * artist’s way [https://juliacameronlive.com/books-by-julia/the-artists-way-a-spiritual-path-to-higher-creativity-audiobook/] - julia cameron * kati morton [https://katimorton.com/] * under the bridge [https://www.imdb.com/title/tt1640719/] find me: - website: *coming soon* - patreon: authentic AF [https://patreon.com/authenticAF?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copyLink&utm_campaign=creatorshare_creator&utm_content=join_link] - instagram: @authenticaf_pod [https://instagram.com/authenticaf_pod?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=], @tayrey.k [https://www.instagram.com/tayrey.k?igsh=YzVkODRmOTdmMw==&utm_source=qr] - tiktok: @tayrey.k [https://www.tiktok.com/@tayrey.k?_t=8jETeHzW3Sd&_r=1] This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit taylorkilpatrick.substack.com/subscribe [https://taylorkilpatrick.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_2]

28 | interlude: update

TW: depression i know it's been a while since i released an episode. i've had a lot of life going on and with that, questions, discoveries, and challenges. join me in this episode as i share a bit about what that's looked like for me, how it's affecting me, and where i hope to go from here. thank you for listening to this episode<3 find me: - website: *coming soon* - patreon: authentic AF [https://patreon.com/authenticAF?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copyLink&utm_campaign=creatorshare_creator&utm_content=join_link] - instagram: @authenticaf_pod [https://instagram.com/authenticaf_pod?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=], @tayrey.k [https://www.instagram.com/tayrey.k?igsh=YzVkODRmOTdmMw==&utm_source=qr] - tiktok: @tayrey.k [https://www.tiktok.com/@tayrey.k?_t=8jETeHzW3Sd&_r=1] This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit taylorkilpatrick.substack.com/subscribe [https://taylorkilpatrick.substack.com/subscribe?utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=CTA_2]