MC Somatics: Rebuilding The Self

Episode 27: We are not a problem to fix

In this episode, I talk about moving out of the cycle of constantly fixing ourselves. I explore what happens when we stop treating ourselves like a project and start building a life that actually supports us. I talk about reducing the pressure to improve, perform, and constantly work on ourselves, and how choosing what feels more peaceful, honest, and regulating can change our relationship with anxiety. I also share about loving being single, the freedom of being in between plans, and how stepping out of the endless self-fixing cycle has opened up more ease, trust, and space in my life. This episode is about healing, peace, and the shift from trying to fix yourself to finally learning how to be with yourself. Show Notes: Song of the Week: Your Smith - In Between Plans [https://open.spotify.com/track/4SNYpcpbOErunzkuqNFoNS?si=fad2ede4c1f544ae] MC Somatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=aeba3444ed1845bd]

Episode 26: The Absence of Repair

In this episode, I talk about the immense grief of living without repair. I explore what it has meant to have a father who never really repaired with me, who made the pain about himself, and how that absence shaped what I came to expect from other people. I talk about the “look on the bright side” kind of bypassing that skips over what is real, and the deeper wound of having your hurt minimized instead of met. I also explore what happens when your no still seems negotiable, when your boundaries are treated like something to push past rather than honor. This episode is about grief, bypassing, and the deep impact of never receiving the repair you needed. Show Notes: Voice From West Pecan: A Poetry Anthology [https://a.co/d/02KtcYUj] Song of the Week: Maddie and Tae - Heart They Didn't Break [https://open.spotify.com/track/4QzoBae05AxedOwsC8cqlh?si=9bf417b189c54ed9] MC Somatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=b5910aefeb5549bd]

Episode 25: The Cost of Authenticity

In this week’s podcast, I talk about authenticity as the cost of admission to your life. As the old self dissolves, there are patterns, relationships, and parts of an old life we can no longer participate in. Not because we are better than before, but because something in us has become too honest to keep abandoning itself. This episode is about identity, change, and what happens when authenticity no longer lets us stay where we have outgrown ourselves. Show Notes: Song of the Week: India Arie - Video [https://open.spotify.com/track/4oiAlcisfimXQc1wyAtX9a?si=79dae6201f5c4a68] MCSomatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/track/4oiAlcisfimXQc1wyAtX9a?si=79dae6201f5c4a68]

Epsiode 24: Going to Committee

In this episode, I talk about what happens when we already know the answer, but do not trust ourselves enough to act on it. So instead, we go to committee. I explore the ways we outsource our knowing by polling other people, gathering more opinions, asking the same question in different rooms, and hoping someone else will give us permission to do what we already know is true. I also talk about what this can look like in real life—how self-doubt, fear, and disconnection from our own inner authority can keep us circling instead of choosing. This episode is about self-trust, discernment, and learning to recognize when going to committee is not wisdom, but avoidance. Show Notes: Song of the Week: PNAU - Stars [https://open.spotify.com/track/5X2WQTXx5EqkAOjlILihVN?si=ff73441f9aca4346] MC Somatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=e06852652b2143c4]

Episode 23: Resentment as a Boundary Signal

In this episode, I talk about how resentment is often not randon, it is a signal. More often than not, resentment builds when we have missed a boundary that was necessary, ignored what we needed, or kept saying yes when something in us was already asking for a no. I explore how resentment can point us back to ourselves, showing us where we have overextended, self-abandoned, or tolerated too much for too long. Instead of treating resentment like something shameful, I look at what it reveals about our limits, our truth, and the boundaries that need to be named. This episode is about listening to resentment differently—not as proof that we are cruel or difficult, but as information about where something needs to change. Song of the Week: Ava Max - My Way [https://open.spotify.com/track/3gJ6t0HKTMto4Aq3sXJVk2?si=f2dcabcac9254452] MC Somatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=34dd50a9981c4d1e]