The Lighthouse Letters

a feeling heart i refuse to harden

My mom always said my biggest vulnerability is my big heart. Respectfully, I disagree. I love my big heart and how it loves, and with every Human Experience™️ I have, I discover an increased capacity for love that I didn't know was there. This letter talks about the exhaustion that I'm feeling from the past few days, and how it is an earned tiredness, one that is well worth the temporary discomfort of having to run on little sleep and still be sort of functional. I talk about the difference between being alive and living, how different I was a year ago when I first started this podcast, heartbreak, and the reminder to "fall in love with the experience of living". This one goes out to anyone who has ever felt like they feel a little too deeply sometimes, that the edges of the world are too sharp. This is an invitation to keep your heart soft in spite of it all, so that the joy and the love may also visit you when the time is right.

The Scream Unscrumpt

I am so sorry that it's been so long, my beautiful wayward ships, but your lighthouse keeper is back! In this episode, I talk about the difference between self-worth and self-confidence, the inner knowledge of having a secure sense of self, and how getting involved in your community can be tricky and is still worth doing. This one is for those of you who have ever felt like you weren't quite good enough of like something was always missing. Sending a little bit of extra love with this episode.

Comedy, showing up, and the state of the world with special guest Daisy Bentley

Our very first lighthouse letters guest is Daisy Bentley! She's an acclaimed Chicago based actress and comedian and longtime friend of mine. I'm so glad I had her on the pod to talk about comedy, getting over bombing, the state of the world and the heaviness we all feel, and some righteous anger about the way things are and the systems that have gotten us here. This letter is for all of you who have been sowing seeds quietly and consistently, waiting patiently for your dream to bloom, and also for those of you who are fed up with being stuck in the cycle of 'barely surviving'. This one is for you.

doing it scared and doing it anyways

I DID SOMETHING SCARY! For YEARS I have been telling myself that I would get back into standup comedy and for YEARS I have been denying myself the joy of performing onstage as a comedian. I made it SO easy for myself to quit, and then kept wondering why I hadn't done stand up at all yet. I finally faced my fears, and did it scared. And, it turns out, doing it scared will give you the confidence you need that magically breaks you out of the funk you were in and suddenly things start lining up. I don't know how the magic works, only that it does. Do it scared. This letter goes out to all you wayward ships who have a dream but are afraid. You're not alone, and I'm here to tell you to do it scared. Keep doing it scared. It means you're doing it right.

we crave the safety of the cradle

When an idea lives in your head, protected by the safety of your skull, it's never exposed to judgement or failure! You can iterate forever. But then, the ideas never make it into your life and you never get to share them with people. It's a vicious cycle. In this letter, I talk about what it means to leave the safety of your head, being vulnerable and choosing to move forward, and what 'craving the safety of the cradle' really means. This one is for you overthinkers out there. I see you, I hear you, and I'm definitely one of you.