My Body New Before I Did
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Thereâs a kind of knowing that doesnât speak in words. It comes as fatigue that sleep doesnât fix. As tension in your jaw. A burning in your belly. A sigh you didnât realize you were holding. My body had been whispering to me for years. And Iânurse, healer, high-functioning perfectionistâhad learned to override it. Until I couldnât anymore. The day it all cracked open was unremarkable on the surface. A Tuesday, maybe. I had charting overdue, patients waiting, an inbox full of tasks. But that morning, I sat in my car in the parking garageâunable to move. Frozen. My heart raced. My mouth was dry. I felt sick. Not like a virus. More like my soul was rejecting my own life. That moment, something ancient in me stirred. Not in my mind, but in my gut. And I heard the clearest truth Iâd ever known: You canât keep going like this. Youâre abandoning yourself. I had spent years tending to others while neglecting the deepest wounds in me. I thought if I just worked harder, achieved more, kept showing up, it would eventually feel right. But healingâreal healingâdoesnât come through achievement. It begins with listening. With choosing yourself. With reclaiming your own body, breath, and soul. That was the moment I began to learn what it truly meant to be a healer. Not someone who fixes others, but someone who remembers their own wholenessâand walks others home to theirs. Since then, my healing journey has looked nothing like I expected. Itâs been messy, nonlinear, and often lonely. But it began with that one moment. That one truth: My body knew before I did. And when I finally listened, everything began to transform. [Pause⊠soft exhale] Thank you for listening. If this story resonated with you, Iâd love to hear yours. You can share your story of transformation at [insert email/link], and we may feature it in a future episode. Until next time, may you honor the wisdom in your bodyâand the healer within.
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