MC Somatics: Rebuilding The Self

Episode 30: The trap of trying to heal away your humanity

In this episode, I talk about the years I spent trying to convince myself that if I just healed enough, certain things would stop bothering me. I explore how that mindset became its own form of self-gaslighting, how it created internal conflict, disconnected me from what I was actually feeling, and turned healing into a maladaptive coping mechanism. Instead of listening to my reactions, I kept assuming the problem was that I just was not healed enough yet. This episode is about the pressure to transcend what still hurts, the damage that comes from overriding our own truth, and what becomes possible when we stop using healing to invalidate ourselves. Show Notes: Song of the Week: Kellee Patterson - If it don't fit, don't force it [https://open.spotify.com/track/1oQo0TQoCLbWmkXEtNTfoA?si=d504a114e2214124] MC Somatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=a7a5e4857d154b65]

Episode 29: The symbolism of what we drive

In this episode, I explore the symbolism of what we drive and how our choices often reveal more than we realize. The cars we choose can reflect what we value, such as safety, status, freedom, comfort, reliability, adventure, or image, and those same values often show up in our relationships. I talk about how our preferences are rarely random, and how what carries us through the world can mirror what we look for in love, connection, and partnership. This episode is about values, symbolism, self-awareness, and the deeper patterns revealed through what we choose. Show Notes: Song of the Week: Maren Morris - 80s Mercedes [https://open.spotify.com/track/58spuRyMUsjKHQHEGwLC99?si=e9cd26c4f3744e96] MC Somatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=d0a5becdbfda48d9]

Episode 28: The High Art of Communication

In this episode, I explore communication as a high art form, something far deeper than simply saying words. I talk about how we come to connection from very different places: sometimes from defensiveness, and sometimes from a real desire to understand. That difference shapes everything. It shows up in our tone, our timing, our ability to listen, and whether our words create clarity or distance. This episode is about the power of language, the cost of defensiveness, and the kind of communication that makes a real connection possible. Show Notes: Son of the Week: Communicating - Bad Suns [https://open.spotify.com/track/75tYzpEnJY5Kp1Cen78ub5?si=ffb4cad5bd824c97] MC Somatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=273ab81a67f0471e]

Episode 27: We are not a problem to fix

In this episode, I talk about moving out of the cycle of constantly fixing ourselves. I explore what happens when we stop treating ourselves like a project and start building a life that actually supports us. I talk about reducing the pressure to improve, perform, and constantly work on ourselves, and how choosing what feels more peaceful, honest, and regulating can change our relationship with anxiety. I also share about loving being single, the freedom of being in between plans, and how stepping out of the endless self-fixing cycle has opened up more ease, trust, and space in my life. This episode is about healing, peace, and the shift from trying to fix yourself to finally learning how to be with yourself. Show Notes: Song of the Week: Your Smith - In Between Plans [https://open.spotify.com/track/4SNYpcpbOErunzkuqNFoNS?si=fad2ede4c1f544ae] MC Somatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=aeba3444ed1845bd]

Episode 26: The Absence of Repair

In this episode, I talk about the immense grief of living without repair. I explore what it has meant to have a father who never really repaired with me, who made the pain about himself, and how that absence shaped what I came to expect from other people. I talk about the “look on the bright side” kind of bypassing that skips over what is real, and the deeper wound of having your hurt minimized instead of met. I also explore what happens when your no still seems negotiable, when your boundaries are treated like something to push past rather than honor. This episode is about grief, bypassing, and the deep impact of never receiving the repair you needed. Show Notes: Voice From West Pecan: A Poetry Anthology [https://a.co/d/02KtcYUj] Song of the Week: Maddie and Tae - Heart They Didn't Break [https://open.spotify.com/track/4QzoBae05AxedOwsC8cqlh?si=9bf417b189c54ed9] MC Somatics Playlist [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=b5910aefeb5549bd]