Eating While Crying

Eating While Crying Episode 4: The Noise

Content note: This podcast discusses eating disorders, treatment, and recovery. We don't share numbers or get graphic about behaviors, but some topics may be sensitive for listeners in early recovery. This week Ashley and Shea dig into "the noise" — the relentless internal voice that eating disorders use to stay in control. They talk about what the noise actually sounds like, how it shapeshifts over the course of recovery (from a catchy pop song to a death metal scream), why it promises safety but never delivers, and what it feels like when the volume finally starts to drop. They also get into body safety, the grief of realizing how much time the eating disorder stole, and the small ordinary moments that now feel like freedom. Terms & Resources Mentioned Purity culture – The religious and cultural messaging around bodies and sexuality that connects to body shame and disordered eating. Ozempic / GLP-1 medications – The episode touches on the current cultural moment around weight loss drugs and the impact on people in eating disorder recovery. Get Help - NEDA Helpline: 1-800-931-2237 | nationaleatingdisorders.org [https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/] * Crisis Text Line: Text "NEDA" to 741741 * Find treatment: psychologytoday.com/us/treatment-centers [https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/treatment-centers] A Note from Ashley & Shea: We are not medical or mental health professionals, just two people navigating recovery and sharing what that looks like in real life. Nothing in this podcast should be taken as clinical advice. Please reach out to a qualified professional if you're struggling.

Eating While Crying Episode 3 - The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly of Recovery

Content note: This podcast discusses eating disorders, recovery, body image, and medical weight stigma. We don't share numbers or get graphic about behaviors, but some topics may be sensitive for listeners in early recovery. This week Ashley and Shea dig into what recovery actually looks like a year out from treatment — not the polished version, but the real one. They talk about grieving your sick body, why getting dressed in the morning can be the hardest part of the day, and how the eating disorder noise sometimes gets louder the harder you fight it. Plus: Ashley reads a letter she wrote to herself during her last week of residential, and finds out how accurate her predictions about recovery actually were. Terms & Resources MentionedIntuitive eating – An approach to eating that focuses on internal hunger and fullness cues rather than external rules. More info → [https://www.intuitiveeating.org/]Body dysmorphia – A condition where a person spends a lot of time worrying about perceived flaws in their appearance. NEDA overview → [https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/body-dysmorphic-disorder]Fear foods – Foods that feel anxiety-provoking or "off-limits" due to eating disorder thoughts. A common exposure therapy target in ED treatment.Exposure therapy – A therapeutic approach that involves gradually and repeatedly facing feared situations or foods to reduce anxiety over time. More info → [https://www.apa.org/ptsd-guideline/patients-and-families/exposure-therapy]Set point theory – The idea that your body has a natural weight range it defends. More info → [https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/set-point-theory]BMI – Body Mass Index. Ashley and Shea reference how the majority of people with eating disorders are not classified as "underweight" per BMI, challenging common stereotypes. More info → [https://www.neda.org/bmi-and-eating-disorders]Opposite action – A DBT skill that involves acting opposite to an emotion-driven urge. More info → [https://dialecticalbehaviortherapy.com/dbt-skills/opposite-action] Get HelpNEDA Helpline: 1-800-931-2237 | nationaleatingdisorders.org [https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/]Crisis Text Line: Text "NEDA" to 741741 | crisistextline.org [https://www.crisistextline.org/]Find treatment: psychologytoday.com/us/treatment-centers [https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/treatment-centers] A Note from Ashley & Shea: We are not medical or mental health professionals, just two people navigating recovery and sharing what that looks like in real life. Nothing in this podcast should be taken as clinical advice. Please reach out to a qualified professional if you're struggling.

Eating While Crying Episode 2: Treatment, Transformation, and Being Sick Enough

Content note: This podcast discusses eating disorders, treatment, and recovery. We don't share numbers or get graphic about behaviors, but some topics may be sensitive for listeners in early recovery. This week Ashley and Shea dig into their experiences with eating disorder treatment: the first time, the subsequent times, and everything in between. They talk about what it actually feels like to walk into residential care, why motivation matters more than people think, and how the people you meet in treatment can change the way you see yourself. Terms & Resources Mentioned * IOP (Intensive Outpatient Program) – A structured treatment program typically 3 days/week, a few hours per day. A step down from PHP. NEDA overview → [https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/] * PHP (Partial Hospitalization Program) – More intensive than IOP; typically full days, 5 days/week, but you go home at night. * Residential treatment – 24/7 supervised care in a treatment facility. The most intensive level short of inpatient hospitalization. * Inpatient – Hospital-based care, typically for medical stabilization. * Meal plan – A structured eating plan created with a dietitian to support nutritional rehabilitation. Not the same as a diet. * Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs – The psychological framework Ashley and Shea reference when talking about why nourishment has to come before deeper therapeutic work. Wikipedia → [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maslow%27s_hierarchy_of_needs] * ED dialogue / eating disorder dialogues – A therapeutic journaling technique where you write a conversation between your healthy self and your eating disorder voice. * Set point theory – The idea that your body has a natural weight range it defends. More info → [https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/] Get Help - NEDA Helpline: 1-800-931-2237 | nationaleatingdisorders.org [https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/] * Crisis Text Line: Text "NEDA" to 741741 * Find treatment: psychologytoday.com/us/treatment-centers [https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/treatment-centers] A Note from Ashley & Shea: We are not medical or mental health professionals, just two people navigating recovery and sharing what that looks like in real life. Nothing in this podcast should be taken as clinical advice. Please reach out to a qualified professional if you're struggling.

Eating While Crying Episode 1: Recovery, Food, and Real Talk

In our very first episode, we answer the question: why are we doing this? What started as a joke (“let’s talk about recovery and record it”) turned into something more real in a world shaped by skinnytok, the shrinking of Hollywood, and the ever-tightening grip of diet culture. We talk about what brought us to eating disorder treatment, what life in recovery actually looks like, and introduce our “Diabolical Diet Comment of the Week.”