soulOtonin

#10 You can’t become who you’re meant to be 🦄 💫 until you UNbecome who you’ve continually been💔

We can get soOO swirled🌪️ up in excitement about finally attempting to make a massive shift in our paths…that we blindly and disconnectedly go full force into a path, venture, or process that possibly worked for others or was advertised to “change your life”.. So of course we pounce, announce, and hope for the best.. Until quite quickly we seem to confusingly crash and burn before we barely even begin.. 🫠 ORRR, We can be sooo afraid of the idea of possibly becoming what we “desire” to be… Because wtf even is that? 😳 We think-what am I passionate about, I don’t feel passion for anything? Gifts-what gifts? Why do I not feel gifted or good at anything? Strengths, what strengths? What lights me up and fills me up- I don’t fucking know..Do I even have a purpose here? Am I supposed to know? How do other people friggin know?😩 And then we sit in a swirling pool of confusion, shame, and embarrassment, feeling lost and alone and just wanting to get sucked down into a sinkhole until clarity and answers make their way down to us and we can show our faces with an ounce of confidence again.. I. FEEL. YOU. I’ve been there. Flailing around in my disconnected energy and attempts..seeking answers to help me correct it all..But always finding myself sorting through the generic guidance and spiritually bougie bullshit , always coming up short and feeling like fool.😔 When you’re trying to change your life but can’t find the damn handbook ..you seek out answers anywhere and everywhere. But sifting through the surface level sameness and guru gloss talk can be exhausting and defeating and leaving you exactly where you began.😩🥺 If you’re like me, you crave DETAILS. And you need motherfckin EXAMPLES. LOTS of examples. You need it broken down to you toddler-style. Blatant. .Digestable.. Igniting your curiosity and self exploration instead of fueling your confusion.✨ So my little love-nuggets! Allow me to shine some light down your tunnel of turmoil, and help you connect to your process and progress a tad bit smoother than the slop-a-doodle-shitshow I went through. Get strapped in for a cuddle puddle with his episode! It’s a butt-load longer than your average attention span.. heehee😘 😘

# 9 When your world is crumbling, you’re not being punished my loves-You’re being divinely PREPPED❤️‍🔥

The crumbling. The collapsing. The falling away of people, places, and things. Things in your world aren’t crumbling because the Universe is punishing you… Your soul is craving growth and summoning you.🔥💖 In my own seasons of dissolve, I spent years ( geezuz, right?) waiting around for things to hopefully come back to me, for me to feel worthy of others love again, and to receive clarity around wtf was wrong with me and what was I doing WRONG to seemingly keep getting kicked in the back of the knees again and again.. I allowed myself to become absorbed in the “why” of everything falling away and put the majority of the blame on myself (and some on others), even though I couldn’t understand it from any angle anyways.. I degraded myself so much that wasn’t able to move forward in much of anything.. All passions and pursuits were put on pause as I patiently waited for others and other things to “come around”. To truly see me. To truly hear me. To love me unconditionally and not expect “old Sarah” from me. But they didn’t. And that’s okay.🧡 But it wasn’t until I woke up and realized that everything and everyone was still continuing on in the game of life and in what they wanted to do-all while I was permanently putting my life on pause waiting around for who knows what to come back.. I gave in to distraction and defeat and days on days of unexpected depression.. for longer than I wish I had.. but it’s all okay because the beautiful thing is.. I FINALLY CAME BACK TO ME. I was provided such depth, space, and isolation that would finally push me to the edge, and provoke me to return to MYSELF. Because if we can’t manage to pour into ourselves, we can’t truly pour into anyone else. Let alone tap into our destiny.. Our souls are not here to be daily doormats for others priorities, roles, emotions, and expectations. Our souls are here to honor OUR OWN growth. First and foremost. And when we can’t manage to get there ourselves, our souls will create little collapsings all around to help initiate it. So open up to the crumbling my loves- you’re not crazy or alone, I promise😘😘

# 8 Spiritual Disaster or Magical Mess? 🌪️ ✨

Sometimes we can feel like we’re the only one unfolding like a spiritual disaster in our soul journey.. And that ..can make us feel like shit. It can make us contemplate our existence and purpose here. Like why aren’t we getting it “right”? And sometimes we can even find ourselves getting sucked into depressed states like quicksand. (But wait Shhh, is that allowed when you’re “spiritual”?) But what we forget, is that ALL OF IT, is part of the journey. OUR unique journey. And that our journeys and our selves are not gonna look like everyone else’s filtered illusionary social media journeys and how they portray and present themselves. There is ALWAYS messiness along with the MAGIC.✨🧹 And there is always AUTHENTICITY required for our souls to heal, grow, and thrive. Yet we can easily slip into the spiritual roles and facades we think we need to play, because we constantly see it stereotypically portrayed as the common way. But THAT, only takes us away from ourselves and creates discord with us. Being “spiritual” already issss YOU. 💅🏽🦄 So if you being truly you looks like some sexy, saucy, siren. You do you. If it looks like some nerdy, studious, book-nook babe.. You do you. If it looks like some down to earth, driven dude… You do you. If it looks like some funny, firecracker, unfiltered femme.. You do you. If it looks like some wooey, witchy woman.. You do you. If it looks like some woodsy, earthy, rugged man.. You do you. If it looks like some fun, fiery, fruity fellow.. You do you. If it looks like some peaceful, calm and collected, put together person.. You do you. 😮‍💨 Your highest truth will never feel like something you’re not. It will never make you feel like poo. Sometimes it just takes us a little journey and Higher reminder to get back to YOU. I caught myself swapping my silly and sarcasm for spiritually stale and stoic. What a garbage trade-off. Barf. And Adios. ✨ Where are you slipping and trading your authenticity for an approved stereotypical role?

#7 Are you vibing this life as the Lil Black Sheep, or pretending to be Miss/Mr Lil Bo Peep?

* I want to preface this by saying that this episode is for ALL who are open to it , there are no exclusions, and you’re always invited to absorb whatever you may be open to receiving from my words, and ALL episodes.✨XO So Sometimes in life we can feel like we get the shit end of the stick.. We feel like oddballs, weirdos, misunderstood, and like we never truly “fit in”… We feel confused or ashamed that we don’t seem to automatically operate like everyone else, dress the same, talk the same, want the same things in life.. And why does it feel like others are flowing and chilling when we seem to get all the challenges , obstacles, trials and tribulations served up to us on a daily silver platter? 🫠 Why do we seem to feel so deeply and yet so differently.. Why do we crave or create what seems to be complexity in everything ,compared to others ways of living? Why can’t we be okay with just following the trends, committing to common careers, sticking to superficial small talk, pretending to be oblivious to inner wounds and wants and enabling family trauma and drama… Why can’t we just be okay with people pleasing and expectation meeting, and living surface level lives that are socially accepted, approved, and praised because hey..everyone else is doing it. Well… We just can’t my loves. Our souls pre-planned it this way. And it’s nothing to be ashamed of or to fall victim to. It’s a goshdamn honor.✨ So whether you are just now realizing you’re the little black sheep … Or maybe you felt it all along but have been denying yourself the experience by pretending to be little Miss Basic Bo Peep.. You’re neither right nor wrong. Or late or behind. You are waking up to your deeper purpose, path, and power and YOU ARE RIGHT ON TIMEEE🧡✨

#6 Oopsies create more daisies.. OOPSIE😍

Pardon my GIANT PODCAST PAUSE… lol. I had a reflection and redirection unfold! Oopsies—>daisies. And now, all is great and good in the spiritual podcast hood! There’s always POWER IN THE PAUSE.. never be afraid to allow it;) Excited AF for my powerful redirect!! ANDDD for the next episode! Only making this thing better babyyy😍 🔥 💫✨✨